Just Being Me - Sippy

2011-04-26T20:29:00.002+08:00

觉得有点寂寞

但不想向任何人倾诉

我是笨蛋吧

2011-01-16T10:09:00.002+08:00

Today is a Sunday.

I skipped Church.

I anger my mom.

She scolded me for staying up until 2:30am.

I told her it's Sunday, I'm entitled to do what I want.

She got very angry.

I know she's disappointed at me but I'm not going to say sorry this time.

I should have gone to church, tat was my 1st mistake.

I should have never come home, tat was my 2nd mistake.

The bakery business.. I know it's booming.

But the thing is.. I can't handle it.

She didn't want to teach and I didn't want to learn from the workers.

I feel so out of place.

Why can't she guide me step by step?

Why must she be so negative?

She forgot that she's the boss and I'm not.

She knows everything and I don't.

I feel so uncomfortable down there.. not knowing where my place.

Staying at home makes me even more depress.

At least when I was working outside, I feel I can capable of something.

At home.. I think sooner or later I'll feel like committing suicide. >.< (just kidding)

God.. if u're there.. help me out will u??

what kind of life your parents have when you're not around

2010-11-11T09:49:00.005+08:00

Read this post form a website.

Just tot I would share.. cos it makes me cry.

The chinese version:

高中最大的願望，就是盡自己的能力考一個遠一點的大學，越遠越好。後來，終於到了那所離家兩千公里的學校，終於可以自由作息、為所欲為；再後來，留在了城市裏工作、生活……但不久，我們終於生了病，一種名叫homesick的病。

龍應台曾寫道：“父母親，對於一個二十幾歲的人而言，恐怕就像一棟舊房子，你住在它裏面，它為你擋風遮雨，給你溫暖和安全。但是房子就是房子，你不會和房子去說話，去溝通，去體貼它、討好它。”在外地的我們，眷戀著父母這所“舊房子”帶來的一切——包容和溫暖，我們如此地愛他們，但愛並不是認識，也不是瞭解，甚至很多時候，我們以愛之名，故意地不去認識，不去瞭解。

比如我們從來沒注意到，我們離開家的日子裏，爸媽過著怎麼樣的生活……

關鍵字：改變

每一次我們回家的時候，他們總能弄出一大桌子菜，給我們準備許多的水果、零食，還有衣服鞋子，他們會和我們聊七大姑八大姨的八卦，領著我們去逛這逛那，熱熱鬧鬧十分溫馨。但沒有我們在家的日子裏，他們是“空巢老人”，他們會一直很安靜，或許還有一些失落，他們節約而簡單，說話不多發呆不少，他們的生活遠沒有我們在家時的豐富多彩……媽媽一盤菜可以吃很多天

網友huanghaizhen：每次我回家，媽媽總會一大早就買好雞，然後加很多補品去燉。我一隻腳剛踏進門，媽媽就會說：“又瘦了！”然後陸續將大魚大肉買回來。當我看到一盤不新鮮的肉，問怎麼還留著時媽媽說：“沒事，一個人，吃不完就放冰箱裏，反正不會壞的，一盤菜可以吃很多天。”看著我們吃，比他們吃在肚子裏還香。

他們更省了，為了給你攢首付

網友火星小精靈：大城市的房價噌噌地漲，我和男朋友因為買不起房子，婚期一拖再拖。爸媽知道後，拿出了所有的積蓄。看著那錢，我都想哭了，十萬塊，是爸媽辛苦了這麼多年，不捨得吃，不捨得穿，不捨得用，才攢下來的。今天因為女兒要買房，他們二話不說就把存摺拿給我們。爸只說：“女兒有大房子，我開心，要吃苦也要和女兒一起吃苦。”可他們以後養老怎麼辦？難道不吃不喝嗎？這個錢我怎麼能要！他們省吃儉用，總是將最好的東西給我們。

他們學上網，為和你視頻聊天

網友朝陽：家裏有了電腦可以跟爸媽視頻聊天，因為硬體的問題只能看到視頻，沒有聲音，我只能打字跟他們溝通。爸媽上歲數了，螢幕上的一句話，我能感覺到他們看了半天，幾乎是一個字一個字地念著。明年我就要結婚了，媽媽說結婚了就不能回家過年了，說今年不回去以後正月初三前就不能回去了，說得我淚如泉湧。

為了看到遠方你的樣子，他們願意在電腦前等幾個小時

關鍵字：想念

你也許收到過這樣的短信：“什麼時候回家，你爸想死你了”、“有空多給爸爸媽媽打電話”、“兔崽子，是不是把爸媽忘了”……兒女是父母心頭的一塊肉，長出來了，就永遠也無法割捨。家裏，我們的房間、甚至放在床頭的書，爸媽都不亂動，說是感覺那樣像是孩子還在家裏似的。這兩位老人，在我們不在家的日子裏，習慣於把我們一次次地想起，把思念一遍一遍地溫習。想兒女，就像是呼吸一樣，是一件他們每時每刻都在進行的事情……他們會拿出我們從小到大的照片細細地看網友八寶糖：由於工作原因，已經幾年沒有回家，爸媽有一次打電話告訴我：“女兒啊，爸媽每天都要看一看你的照片，從你滿月到大學畢業的，我們都看。你有新的照片記得寄回來，爸媽幾年不見你，真怕記不得你的樣子，認不出你啊……”聽完我就徹底淚奔了。

如果可以，他們一定願意再陪我們成長一次。

他們從不錯過我們所在城市的天氣預報

網友swevenJAN：有一次，老爸打電話來說：“不要再出去吃東西了，你看現在食品中又檢驗出什麼菌的，小心吃壞肚子，出門穿厚點，你們那裏降溫到十度了。”我說：“你看我這兒的天氣預報啊？”他說：“天天都看，你那十幾度，深圳也十幾度（弟弟在深圳），有風，降溫了，沒我這冷，但要保暖別凍著……”

爸媽，永遠是在遠方與我們分享陽光、分擔風雨的那對老人。

總是把我們的房間一遍遍打掃

網友Mint：暑假回去的時候，見餐桌上還放著一套紫砂茶具，那是之前我在家時拿出來使的，臨走時沒時間收拾進櫃子就一直擺在那兒。我問媽，不是說讓你收起來的嗎？媽說，你爸不讓動，讓還放在那兒，感覺回家了就能喝到你泡的茶，他每天都會擦一擦茶具。

最偉大的爸媽不是願意一輩子養孩子，而是願意為了孩子的幸福放他們去飛，而他們就甘願為孩子經營那一輩子的窩。

他們總隨身攜帶手機，不是離不開手機，是離不開我們

網友低低低腰褲：爸爸媽媽連拼音都不記得了，手機是用我的舊手機，手寫的，平時他們一個月也沒幾個電話。但在我離開家以後，他們兩人去到哪里都會帶著這部手機，就怕錯過我打給他們的電話。

網友若若：有天一大早，我媽打來電話，說：“你爸昨晚十點半說想你了，非要打電話給你，我跟他說你睡了，他才答應今天早上打。”全中國增加的手機用戶中，有幾億是離不開兒女、時刻惦念兒女的父母。

關鍵字：不便

父母老了。爸爸不再是那個把我們高高扛上肩的年輕小夥，媽媽也不再是那位幹家務麻利十足的年輕美女。老，是一種讓人傷感的事情，但他們為了不給我們添麻煩，總是說自己一切沒問題，他們每次電話裏第一句話總是：“寶貝你好嗎，家裏一切都好，不用擔心。”其實你不知道，沒有你在家的日子裏，他們過得並不容易……突發急病，身邊卻沒有年輕人能送他們到醫院網友世界最憂傷的狗：父親生病了。夜裏只有我媽陪他大老遠跑去縣城看病，病情很嚴重。我感到莫名的悲哀，都說養兒防老，可是像我這樣身在遠方，他們需要我時除了在電話裏問候兩句，還能做什麼？父親喜歡喝酒，大家老早就擔憂這個問題，但是因為他身體沒什麼異樣，所以也沒反對，這次終於表露出來了。酒，肝的天敵，如果發現得再晚一點，不知道有什麼更可怕的後果。電話中還笑著對我說沒事，我真的有種撞牆的衝動。

請堅持每年帶父母體檢一次。

買了一大袋子米，兩個老人拖了一個小時才拖到家

網友好多蟲蟲：我的爸爸年輕時就很想要一個兒子，他說等他年老了，家裏還有個有力氣的人幫他扛米、扛煤氣上樓……他是生了我這麼一個兒子，但兒子長大後讀書了就再也回不到那個小城鎮了。今年爸爸五十多了，以前一手抱我，一手還能扛100多斤米的他，每次去買米都得叫上媽媽，兩個老人一次買40斤米都要輪流拖著回家。每次想到這個，我真的很想回到他們身邊。

記得回家時幫爸媽買好米，充好電，再續上網費。

爸媽老了，開始動作緩慢、反應遲鈍

網友jackone32123：印象中的老爸一直都是個能手，什麼都難不倒老爸。後來上學工作一直在外地，直到有一天，在網上聊天時教他用gtalk、gmail那些東西，我給他講了一遍，他沒明白，我又講了一遍，他還是沒太懂，我補上一句“急死我了，半天都冒不出一句話……”，然後我看見螢幕上正在輸入的提示停下了，過了很久，螢幕上冒出來一句“兒子，你別著急，爸爸老了，反應不過來了”。當時淚奔，恨不得抽自己兩個耳刮子。

把動作放慢一點，等等他們，問問冷暖，就像我們小時候，他們對我們一樣。

……一人在外打拼很辛苦，那是自己選的就自己承擔。只是，累了就回家吧，爸媽永遠高興為你多添副碗筷。

The English version:

When I was in High School, my biggest wish is to entered a university which is far away from home, the further the better. Later, I entered a university which is 2000km away from home. I can finally live freely. Then, I went to work in the city. But after that, I started to get an illness, which is called.. “homesick”.

Long Ying Tai (龍應台) once wrote:”Parents, to the 20s, they are like an old house. If you’re staying in it,it will protect you from the wind and the rain, provides you warm and safety. But a house is a house, you will never talk to the house, to communicate with it, to be considerate, or to please it.” Those of us who are staying away from home, we miss what our parents (old house) gave us – toleration and warmness. We love them a lot, but love doesn’t mean we know them, or understand. We love them, but we purposely not to know them, or to understand them.

For example, we never notice what kind of life our parents are having when we are not at home..

Key word: Changes

Everytime we return home, they will make a table full of dishes, prepare a lot of fruits, snacks, clothes and shoes. They will tell us the gossips, bring us here and there. But when we are not around, they are “empty shell old folks”. They live quietly, and perhaps lost. Their life is simple. They do not talk much. Their life is not as rich as when we are at home. One dish that mother cooked can be eaten for a few days.

Huanghaizhen: Everytime I went home, my mom will buy chicken and other supplementary food to boil for me. The moment I entered the house, my mom will said “why are you thin again?” Then she will buy fish and meat. When I see meat that is not fresh, I’ll ask my mom why she keep it. She answers: “It doesn’t matter. I’m alone, I can’t finish it so I put inside the fridge. It won’t spoil so I can eat it for days.” Watching us eating tastes better than them eating the food.

They save so that they can pay the first installment for you.

Huo Xing Xiao Jing Ling: The houses in big cities are so expensive. I can’t get married with my boyfriend bcos we couldn’t afford to buy a house. After my parents know about it, they took out all their savings. Looking at that money, I felt like crying. They worked so hard for so many years to save this 10,000 dollars which they are not willing to eat, not willing to wear, and not willing to use. My dad just said, “My daughter has a big house, I am happy, if I have to suffer, I will suffer with my daughter.” But how are they going to survive when they are old? They can’t be not eating and not drinking? How can I take this money. They save so that they can give us the best.

They learn how to go online so that they can chat with you.

Chao Yang: My family has a computer so that I can chat with my parents. Because of the hardware problem, thye can only look at me, but there’s no sound. I can only type to communicate with them. My parents are old now. Looking at the monitor screen, I can feel them. They took time to read word by word. Next time I’m going to get married. Mom said after I got married, I could not come back for reunion. She said if I don’t return this year then next time before January 3^rd (Chinese Calender)* I can’t return home. I started crying after reading it.

*Chinese Tradition: After getting married, the couple will visit the husband’s family for the 1^st 2 days and then only visit the wife’s family on the 3^rd day.

Your parents are willing to wait in front of the computer for a few hours just to see you.

Key word: Missing

You might receive this kind of sms before: “when are you coming back home, your dad is missing you”, “when you’re free call daddy mommy more often”, “son.. did you forget your parents”... children, they are always a part of their parent’s heart, once it grows, they can never get rid of it. At home, our rooms, and those books which we put it on the bedside , they will never touch. They said they feel that their children are still at home. These two old folks, when we are not at home, they will think of us from time to time. Missing us, is just like breathing to them, is what’s going in them every single moment. They will took out our photos from the time when were babies until we left home.

Ba Bao Tang: Because of works, I did not go back home for a few years. My parents called me once, “Daughter, we looked at your pictures every single day.. from your full moon to your graduation. If you have any new photos, remember to send it to us. Daddy mommy haven’t seen you for years, we are afraid we might not be able to remember your face, couldn’t recognize you.” After listening, I cried a lot.

If they could, they are willing to accompany us grow up again.

They never miss the weather report in our city.

Sweven Jan: Once, my dad called. “Don’t simply eat the food outside. They found some virus in the food, don’t get food poisoning. When you go out, wear more. The temperature at your side is decreasing.” I then said “You read my place’s weather report?” He said. “I read every day. Your place is around ten plus degrees. Your brother’s place also ten plus degrees. There’s wind, the temperature is lower, but keep yourself warm, don’t get cold..”

Parents, they are always the one to share their sunlight for us from far, the one who helps to shield us from wind and rain.

They always help us to clean our room.

Mint: When I went back for holiday, I saw the purple tea set on the dining table. It was taken out before I left home. I did not have time to put it back into the cupboard so I left I there. I ask my mother: “Mom, I thought I asked you to keep it in the cupboard?” My mom answered: “Your dad doesn’t allowed me to keep. He said leave it there, it feels like you’re at home and he’s able to drink the tea that you made. Everyday, he will wipe the tea set.”

The greatest parents are not the ones who are willing to take care of their children the whole life. They are the ones who are willing to let their children leave the nest for their own happiness, and they are willing to take care of the nest for their children for the nest.

They always bring their handphone along, it’s not that they can’t leave their handphone, they can’t leave us.

Di Di Di Yao Ku: My parents can’t remember how to spell. The handphone was my old phone. You can write on it. They do not have much call every month. But after I left home, no matter where they go, they will bring it along to them, worried that they will miss my call.

Luo Luo: One morning, my mom called me. She said, “You father said he missed you at 10:30am last night and said want to call you. I told him you’re asleep then he said he will you call you this morning.” There are a lot of parents who use handphone because because they miss their children very much.

Key word: Inconvenience

When your parents turn old, your dad is not the young folk who place us on his shoulder, and your mom is no more the your capable beauty. This is a saddening fact. However, in order not to cause us trouble, the always say that they are fine. Everytime they called, their first sentence is always this: “Darling, are you okay? Everything is fine at home, don’t worry.” But you never know what happens when you are not at home, Their life wasn’t easy. When they were sick, there were no to send them to hospital.

Shi Jie Zhui You Shang De Gou: My father was sick one night. There was only my mom accompany him to a faraway town to see the doctor. He was very sick. I felt so sad when I heard it. They said you have children to take care of you when you’re old. However, a son like me who’s faraway, what can I do whey they need me the most? I can only greet them on the phone. My father likes to drink. We were always worried about his health. But because there was never any sign, so we did not object to him drinking. This time, the illness showed it. Liquor, the enemy of liver, if they found out a little more sooner, I could not imagine the consequences. Even though he told me the was alright on the phone, I have the urge to bang my head on the wall.

Please take your parents for health inspection every year.

After buying a big bag of rice, the two old folks spent one hour to drag it home.

Chong Chong: My dad used to want a son when he was young. He said when he’s old, there would be someone to help me carry the rice and the gas to go upstair. He did have a son, which is me, but after I grow up, I studied elsewhere and never went back to the small town. My father is 50 plus this year. He used to be able to carry me on one hand and carried a bag 100 pounds (斤)* of rice on the other hand. Now everytime he buys rice, he has to ask my mom along. Both of long will buy a bag of 40 pounds (斤)* of rice everytime, so that they can take turn to drag it home. Everytime when I thought of this, I really want to return to their side.

Remember to help your parents to buy rice, charge the electricity, and paid the online bills.

When your parents are old, their actions and reflections are slower.

Jackone32123: In my impression my dad is always very capable and nothing is difficult for him. Later, I started studying and working elsewhere. One day, I thought my dad how to use gtalk, gmail and other things. I explained to him once and he didn’t understand. I repeated again, he still didn’t understand and so I said, “Why is it taking so long to come out with a sentence…” I saw typing hint on the monitor screen stop. After a long while, this appear on the screen: “Son, don’t be anxious. Your dad is old, my reaction is slow.” I crying that time, felt like giving myself two tight slaps.

Slow down your actions, wait for them, ask them how they are, just like when we were young, how they treat us.”

… It’s hard to work out there but since this is what you choose then you have to bear yourself. But, if you’re tired then come back home. Your parents are always happy to add another dining set for you.

2010-11-04T22:16:00.002+08:00

你告诉我我看起来很压抑。

我说因为我睏了。

你说不是，因为我看起来很不快乐，所以很压抑。

听到这我安静了。

其实我知道，我一直都知道我变安静了，笑容也少了，就连法令纹也深了。

但是。。现在的我，又能怎样。

看来我还没真正准备长大吧。。

2010-07-19T11:47:00.001+08:00

i'm depress. again.
i'm a promise breaker. absolutely.

To you

2010-04-05T23:28:00.007+08:00

If I must die for 1 person in this world, it's definitely for you.

This post is for you.

Mommy, this post is from the 3 of us even though I'm the only one writing it. >.<

Mommy, I'm always thankful that you brought us to this world, just like how I'm thankful to grandma for bringing you to this world.

I'm lucky to have a charming dad, beautiful mom, and 2 handsome bros and I have every reason to believe that they are lucky to have a cute sister like me too. *grin*

CW and CS will most probably kill me when they see this pic. :p

To celebrate your birthday, I have nothing much to give but this:

Credit: Manyfreewallpaper.com

A beautiful heart made of roses for my beautiful mom.

In our eyes, mommy, you're the most beautiful woman in this world.

It's not because of the make up that you apply.

It's not because of the pretty clothes that you wear.

It's not because of the accessories that you put on.

All those things are just there to enhance your beauty.

You are beautiful because mommy.. we love you. :)

Mommy, you always call us you greatest achievements.
But I know how much heartache that you went through while bringing us up.
It was not easy to educate us, but you tried your best to give us the best, and even though we are not yet successful, but I'm sure in the very near future, we will be.

And Mommy, thanks for enduring all the troubles and heartaches while growing us up

Thanks for never be disappointed at us no matter how many mistakes that we made.

Thanks for being forgiving at all times.

Even if everyone fails us, leaves us, stop trusting us, we know you are always there to support all the decisions that we made.

Mommy, do you know how amazing you are?

Do you know just words of comfort from you can remove our worries easily?

Do you know awesome you are in leadership skill?

Do you know how great is your culinary skill?

Do you know how much I would want to be like you?

Credit: Zazzle Site

That's me on the left, CW's on the right.

You ask me where's CS?? Inside ur tummy. XD

Well mommy, there's so many reasons for us to love you.

But most importantly, we love you because you first love us.

The same reason why I love Jesus.

So, mommy, I wish that you will be the happiest woman on this world, especially on this special day of urs.
Once again, Happy Birthday~!!

p/s. Mommy, let's go watch the Easter play at Agape kay??

Hope one day you realise how much Jesus loves you too. :)

my daily does on Mar 15

2010-03-30T21:50:00.002+08:00

The Daily Dose I'm support to read on my bday, which is Mar 15:

Instead of running away from God, we need to run towards God.

I only read it today.
And yeah, this is kind of the situation i'm in now.
When I read it, it makes me wonder whether it was just a coincidence or God trying to reveal to me.

I do not know why I'm running away from God..
Perhaps bcos I gave him too many empty promises ande I felt to keep it.
Or perhaps I'm skipping church too often, and I felt guilty to face Him.
No matter what the reason it is, God is telling me not to run away from him.

I guess lacking of Christian friends in my life really makes a difference.
I can't help but to compare during my uni life and now.
I miss going CF every Tuesday, going CG every Thursday, and going church to serve on Sunday.
(I was too lazy to go for prayer meeting on Friday. :p)
And I think I'm much happier having God in my life than now. >.<

So dear God, if U're listening, please dun let go of my hands no matter what kay.
If I'm not running towards U, well.. U can always pull me back to U, since I'm tied to U d. *wink*

On another note, I'm losing the "sparkleness" I once have.
Working life really does change me.
I wonder what am I gonna do to gain back my "sparkleness".
I miss those moments that I can smile without worries. >.<

Good nite ppl, if any of u still reading my blog. :p

happy bday to me. :)

2010-03-16T00:29:00.002+08:00

Time to update my blog.
It has been months.
My garden is dying.. I'm guilty.

Today is my 24th bday.
Yeap, getting old.
This post is not about how I celebrate my bday.
I just want to write some thoughts.
And maybe to take this opportunity to say thank you to those that have wished mew
Thank you, you have no idea how much i appreciated them. :)

Recently I went to Win Nee's wedding.
I only went to the wedding dinner part.
But it's one of the best wedding dinner I have ever attended.
It was awesome, it was very very awesome.
I'm glad to see that Win Nee have found someone who is perfect for her.
Yeap, I use the word "perfect" becos that is exactly how i feel when i see them together.
Whether the bridgegroom Euwing is perfect or not, I really do not know.
But from the way she smiles, from the way he treats her, I know Euwing is the one for her, the perfect and the only one for her.

Reading their love story, I was amazed at how God leads them.
God shows a very strong message to me, that is if you live your life according to His priority, He will lead you on the right path, and let you meet the right person.
Win Nee, from her friends' testimony, from the way I know her, she's one who loves God a lot.
She's generous and willing to do so much for God.
In return, God rewards her by letting her meet with the right one.
God does so many wonderful things, isn't it?

I wonder whether I can be like Win Nee, to be an obedient child of God and serves Him faithfully.
It's definitely difficult for me.
But I have a feeling that I must first serve the Lord whole-heartedly and love him with all my soul and only then, God will be able to show me the right way to go.
So yeah, this is the lesson I learn from Win Nee's wedding.

Lastly, i just hope Win Nee's marriage life will be a wonderful one.
And hope my bday wish for this year will be fulfill.
Good nite ppl, if there's anyone still follow my blog. :p
Tas.

2009-11-26T21:04:00.002+08:00

Today is 26th November, the day my hamster died.
I can't show u its picture bcos when I'm back, it was already buried.
I guess I won't want a pet anytime soon.

I can't remember when my hamster was born d.
But it was born 3 months after my attachment, the smallest among its siblings.
I didn't name my hamster at all, cos they said when u name it, u will start developin feelings for it, and when it died, u will feel sad and I dun wan that happennin to me.
But now I regretted.. I should have named it.
My hamster deserve a name after all..

My hamster is a female.. but sadly to say, it never got pregnant and had any babies.
So there's no offspring from her.
Now that she died, I regretted again, I should have bought a male to mate with it.
It didn't even fulfill its purpose to have offsprings, so many things that it hasn't tried.

When my hamster got old, it started to get bald.. and this freaks me out cos I never saw my previous hamster like that before.
I couldn't bring myself to pet it, feel kinda disgusted and eerie.
In fact, I hope it died soon.. tat way i can stop takin care of it.
but now I regretted it.. I regretted for my tots and I regretted for my lack of compassion.
My hamster died without enough love and care.
It died in loneliness.

Today my hamster's death taught me a lesson.
It taught me in actual how ugly i am.t
it taught me that I only like beautiful things and when things turn ugly, I'll be the one to stay away.
It makes me wonder when my parents turn old, how will I treat them??
I just realise how ugly my heart is.
No wonder God looks at the heart, and not the appearance..

looking at the spot where I put my hamster.. it only makes me feel like cryin now.
Sigh..

my 2nd post to u, Park Jae Beom

2009-11-03T17:14:00.012+08:00

Jae Beom, I wanted to write my 2nd post to you quite long ago.
I keep contemplating what to write to you but at last I managed to.

Lately with 1.59pm comeback, there are so many news about 2pm.
Everything I read the comments on what people leave, I keep yelling at how stupid they are.
Really.. only no-brainers will scold those pro-boycotters as not true fans.
To me, they are the real HOTTESTS, not those who bash their movements.
Even though I have done nothing for you, but at least I would never say they are "being too much","go overboard" and etc.
Seriously.. I have no single dou that1.59pm is the right thing to do.
If the 1st album of 2pm actually sells well, it's all thanks to you, Jae Beom, since JYP uses you so much as marketing effect.

In my earlier post to you, I said fans would forget you within 3 months.
But well, they proved me wrong.
I was overestimating them. It only took them 2 months to move on.
They say seeing how the other 6 are so hardworking, they could not but to support them.
They say the other 6 will get hurt if the boycott goes on cos it seems like they only care for you, and not the rest.
And then they say they want you to go back to a 2pm that is successful since there's no point going back to a group that wasn't there.
When I read all these comments, I feel like just sneering at them like how Professor Snape does.

The current 2pm, or 1.59pm is not a 2pm that I like.
I like a 2pm which is dorky, funny, fun-loving, honest and etc.
I fell in love with you guys bcos of how you protray youselves in variety show.
I love your sunshine image.
I love how you guys can love so sexy yet so dorky the same time.
I'm impress with the dancing skill too.
So many acrobatic movements, and especially you, Jay, all those b-boy movements.
I saw Woo Young doing the spinning in the air thingy.. but it's just not as same as yours, there's no such beastly vibe from you.

I hate the new concepts.
I hate the gothic/ghastly feelings that they gave.
They said it's a mature concept but I can only see gloominess in them.
I know artists will change their albums every time they produce a new one.
But this album is totally not 2pm, not the beastly idols that I know.
It's so dark and gloomy, no wonder the album came out near Halloween time.
It gives people idea what to dress for next Halloween. >.<>

I can help but to compare Big Bang and you guys too.
No offence, but I feel Big Bang is much talented than you guys interm of music.
And that's why I feel variety show is ur strong points.
Since Big Bang doesn't join variety show frequently, and they can't be as dorky as you guys.
But since 1.59pm is banned from variety show, then there's no place for you guys to shine isn't it??
I'm tired of groups holding a perfect-boy image, I suddenly miss Shinhwa in their old days.
2pm's dorkiness is the only group that resembles with Shinhwa.
Without that.. I don't think I'll find 2pm attractive anymore. >.<

Jae Beom, I don't understand how the fans could be so ignorant, believing in JYP words that you went back to US on your own and how just one statement on some variety show could satisfy them so much.
Can I use the word STUPID to describe them?
Didn't they realise the word "IF" was used?
Didn't they realise the aim of the KHottests' boycott was not reached yet??
I was happy to tears when I saw the heading that JYP revealed the plan of bringing you back but I realised it was just as vague as before and the only difference is you will be going back to 2pm, instead of a new group or solo.
But to me it's like "DUH~", why want to anger the fans even more by placing you in a new group or waste money on you to make a solo album.
Korean's media really know how to generate attention.
JYPE couldn't openly say that they will leave the leader position for you.
It just bring me to fury when I read all those.
Why just can't "so-called fans" see that??

Even if 1.59pm is successful for this album, I know they won't be able to remain at the top unless they create different kinds of scandal.
It's just a matter of time for the other groups to catch up.
I can't deny JYP is a genius, using you as a marketting tool for this album.
So what happen to next album??
It's either you are coming back or.. well, I just don't want to imagine right now.
But let me just say this, without you, or without any of the 2pm member, 2pm.. is just not 2pm anymore.
7-1=0 is true.

And Khun's thank you note also annoy me as well.
I do not know how other people read it.
But why is he putting you in the way that you're not coming back at all?
It's like you will never return to 2pm, and so he wishes you well and wants to make you proud and hope one day in the future you guys can laugh and look back together.
It's just freakingly annoying me.
Perhaps it's my own interpretation, and he didn't mean it tat way, but why did he word it in such a way??

From the day you said you quit and went back to US, I still believe that it's not your own desire.
Perhaps partly it's what you wished, to escape and go back to US for a period of time, to seek comforts from your loved one then come back to face all things again.
I feel you have made the right choice in leaving everything behind for a while cos if you stay back, you might really be driven to commit suicide.
So I won't call you a coward, cos I'm just grateful that you'll still alive and hopefully, coming back to 2pm one day.
The thing is.. I feel JYP is the one that planted the idea for you to quit the group when he heard that you want to go back to US.
Perhaps it's for the rumoured advertising deal that prompted you to leave.
They don't want you to be in the advertisement, they don't want a so-called "traitor" to be filming their products.
Bcos of money, JYP decided to sacrifice you.

A person with average intelligence could tell that Jae Beom, you're not the key to come back to 2pm, JYP is.
You told your friend said you want to comeback but you don't know now.
Well, you are right.. Bcos it's not you who decide it, it's JYP.
If he asks you to come back, I'm sure you will be gladly to do it.
But he won't bcos he has an advertisement deal that he has to face, and fans have no value in his eyes since new fans can be garnered when 2pm comes out with a new album.
And yes, he is damn right.
He successful break the Hottest to 2 parties, even the iHottests as well.
I can't help but to applaud to his genius, for being able to say the right words at the right time.
Genius indeed, I wish I can have his marketing mind some day.
And now I wonder what he will do with the next person who's in trouble.

I really hope the pro-boycotters will go on cos they are the one that can bring you back.
If only people see that by supporting it would only lead to a failure of bring you back.
Look at Mohandas Gandhi, his silent protest and boycott lead India to independence.
So I believe the Hottests' boycott can lead you back as well.
As long as they are unite and believe in their aim and goal.

Jae Beom, remember the Hottests didn't ask you to return and resume your activity now.
They want the media to leave you alone, and not using you as a marketting tool.
All they want is just an OFFICIAL PRESS STATEMENT from JYPE regarding the withdrawal of your quit notice and there will always be an open space for you as the leader of 2pm when you feel you're ready to comeback.
But if really, it's your intention to quit the group forever, please make it clear to everyone so that everybody can move on and support a 2pm without Jay.
Even though the Hottests will feel sad, but they will be able to continue to love an incomplete 2pm and respect your decision.
But please say it from your heart if you really intends that.

So Jae Beom, until you return to 2pm, there will be no meaning to watch or listen to 2pm that is clearly using you as a marketing strategy.
Really really hope that if any 2pm fans choose to be so gullible and ignorant, then at least don't criticize on what the KHottests are doing.
You have no right to doubt at their passion and hardwork. So keep it to yourself and stop giving hurtful comments.
So Jae Beom, take good care of yourself for now. Enjoy your stay at home and don't forget to train hard for you choclate abs.
God bless. Byes byes for now.

a prayer

2009-10-27T21:13:00.002+08:00

Dear Lord,

Please have mercy.
I know when we do something wrong, we can't turn back time and undo our mistakes.
But dear Lord, pls.. I really pray that You have mercy.
Please Lord, please open another door for him, please show him the way, please tell him that everything will be alright in the end.
Please Lord.. You know that he needs you more than anything now.. just that he doesn't know yet..
So dear Lord, please please please answer my prayer and let miracle happens.
I really wish to see him happy..
With the name of Jesus, I pray to you, Amen..

2009-10-09T08:47:00.001+08:00

i thought working was hard
but now i know driving was even harder
i hv enough of scoldin, shoutin d.. T.T
can i not drive anymore??

2009-10-01T08:56:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I feel working life is so stressful.
You do not know what you do that will annoy people.
My pimples are breaking out.
I have really turned into a MONSTER.
I wish to just stay at home & sleep all day long.
Haha..

To Park Jae Beom, the ex-leader of 2pm

2009-09-20T20:52:00.006+08:00

(credit to: kpculture)
I'm surprise with myself wanting to write this post to you even though I know you will never read this, since there are millions of blog posts, sites, news dedicating to you.
But still, I just feel like writing this.

The day you left was the day that I got to know 2pm.
Before that, I have never thought of paying attention to 2pm.
The first time I heard the name, I was thinking, "what kind of group would call themselves 2pm?? They are so weird."
So after 2pm had debuted for 1 year, and after you, Park Jae Beom left, I thought of checking you guys out finally, since you have created much uproar.

I always decide whether a group is to my liking based on their performance on variety show.
That's the main reason why I love Shinhwa, they are so fun to watch, so natural and yet so lovable.
I started looking at 2pm variety show clips on youtube and guess what??
I fell for you guys after watching "Idol Army".
I love how NATURAL you guys are.
And I love how DIFFERENT you guys are from other idol groups.
You have the similar qualities that Shinhwa have and that made me addicted to you guys. Wow.. no wonder Minwoo said 2pm is similar to Shinhwa.
But Park Jay Beom, knowing this makes me regret watching those clips now.
Cos if I do not know how awesome 2pm is, I would never be troubled by the very fact that you have quitted the group.

I am lucky that I know Shinhwa much later, long after the incident of Andy leaving the group.
Shinhwa was lucky and so was Andy.
He left the group and came back almost 1 year later, and became part of the reason why Shinhwa still remains together after everything they have gone through, because they have experienced separation, so they know how precious each other is.
It's true that during that 1 year period, Shinhwa continued to be successful without Andy.
But were the Shinhwa Oppas happy without Andy??
The answer is NO and that’s why they had the "Guerilla Concert" to get Andy back.
To them 6-1=0 applied. Shinhwa is incomplete without Andy.
Shinhwa has proved themselves to be legendary, by remaining together after 11 years without changing any group member or having any member leaving the group.

But since I know Shinhwa much later, I missed the "Suwon moment", I miss the "4th fanmeeting", but still I considered myself lucky, to avoid the pain and agony of waiting for Andy's return.
And just when I am happily waiting for their reunion, and you, Pak Jae Beom, see what you have got me into??
You quit 2am, and now you made me experiencing the anxiety, pain and agony of waiting.
So Park Jae Beom, what are you going to do next??

(credit to: asiafanetic)
I have seen so many comments about missing you, hoping to see you coming back to the group, whether on youtube, allkpop, baidu, or 2oneday forum, everyday there will be people saying how much they miss you, how much they hate the korean net fans for digging out what you said in the pass, and the whole "patriotic issue".
To me, I find it ridiculous too but then again, everything happens for its own reason.
There's a Chinese saying 塞翁失马，焉知非福 (sai weng shi ma, yan zhi fei fu), it means even if unfortunate event happens, it might turn out to be a blessing.
Do you know much fans you have before leaving 2pm??
Do you know how much fans you got after leaving 2pm??
Do you know what an impact you made on people now??
Do you know how important you are to your members, to your fans now??

I don't exactly know what are the real reasons of you leaving the group.
Perhaps like you had always said, "it's a conspiray", JYPE forcing you to leave.
Perhaps it's like what JYP had said, "it's his decision to leave", and so you to return to Seattle.
But no matter what the reason is, it's not important now.
What the Hottest wants is an honest statement from you, whether it's really your intention of really quitting 2pm, or just a rushed decision, and instead you just need time to cool off and return when you are ready.
I know you're ashamed for the remarks that you've made 4 years ago, but it’s no big deal to me, and perhaps it’s not such a big deal to you either.

But what you could not accept is that how you are not forgiven for the careless words from 4 years ago. Despite the 4 years of hardship training, despite the efforts you show them on stage, on variety show, people still think of you as one who is not patriotic, who is a shame to Korean, who should die instantly.
I know how disappointed you are when they forgot you were only18 when you wrote it. They forgot even 4 years later, you were only 22, not mature enough to handle most things yet. They forgot as a third generation Korean American, you have problem adopting the cultural shock, and the loneliness away from your family and friends. They also forgot you are only a human, as fragile as they are, and you will make mistake like them too. And lastly, they forgot about the “Choi Jin Shil incident”, and luckily they only forced a talented singer away from Korea, not to death.

(credit to: photbucket?)
But Park Jae Beom, so what if the anti-fans have signed a suicide petition, so what many can’t forgive you now??
You do not need their support, you only need the Hottest. Idol group always called their fans their families, because they know no matter what happen, the fans are always there for them.
Your Hottest has showed it to you that they stick to their words, they are willing to fight for your return, as long as they know what your real intention is.
But if it's your intention to quit, then let them know as well, so that they can respect your decisions, and stop boycotting and continue to support the other 6.
So Park Jae Beom, state a date for that statement, think thoroughly with what you want, be honest with yourself, do not be afraid of anything, just pour out your heart's true desire, so that you don't regret for the rest of your lives.

Park Jae Beom, if you called yourself a true Christian, then think of it as a trial from God.
God will never give you a trial that you couldn't overcome.
So what if the mountain in front of you seems so large, with God behind you, His 1 finger can lift it up isn't it??
You might say I am in no position to say all these, cause I'm not you, cause I'm not hated by thousands, but so what?
I share the same God as you and I know how awesome He is, and I know He will carry you through, cause He has showed how much you are being loved right??
He has opened a door for you, He has showed your talents to the world, and now you’re going to shut the door yourself, without trying to endure it??
You’re a leadja, you’re not a loser, you’re the tough Park Jae Beom with 6-pack body, the centre of attention.
You dance well, sing well, rap well, and all the girls were attracted by your charms.
I bet God knows that too, and that’s why He lets this happen to you, to see how you would face it, to see how much you would grow from this, to see whether you can remain your faith no matter what happens, and to bless you greatly when you have proved yourself.

(credit to: flikr?)
So leadja, stop keeping quiet, stop being silent and stop sinking into your guiltiness and disappointment.
That’s not the Park Jae Beom that the Hottest like because the Hottest like a leadja who is 100% confident, always true to himself.
And always remember this, people are forgetful.
This might be a big issue now but 3 months later, nobody would remember it anymore.
The battle between JYPE and Hottest will not be long too, someone else will eventually take your place and even though 2pm is not the same without you, people will move on and continue to support the remaining 1:59pm.
Neither of us wants to see this happening, especially those that have captivated by your sexy charm, so Park Jae Beom, do something before it’s too late.
A statement from you will lead to a conclusion of how things are.
And I know you are well-aware of that too, and all you need now is courage and that’s why the Hottest are there for you.
I really, really do want to see more of you on variety show like “Wild Bunny” but then again, that is my wish, and whatever you have decided, your decision will be respected.

God bless you. :)

2009-09-18T21:36:00.002+08:00

I guess God taught me a lesson today.
He taught me not to be arrogant.
He taught me not to look down on people.
He taught me everyone has his/her own value and no one is better off than the others.
He taught me ppl treat you the way you treat them.
Guess I should take this long holiday to digest..

another new love. :p

2009-09-15T22:49:00.003+08:00

Found a new Korean guy that I like.
He's Woo Young from 2pm.
Hehe~
Will introduce him when I'm in the mood.
So girls, check him out.
He's the one with short hair, white shirt, blue jacket, shorts with sneakers.
His outfit is totally my style. *beaming happily*
Then again, he's too young for me. *sad puppy look*
Will update more about him soon. Hehe~

2009-09-06T12:45:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. lately I realise what kind of guy I'm attracted to.
A guy who has lots of money of course!!
Especially when he's able to afford saying things like "I don't care how much it would cost, I just want the problem to be solved."
Those words would really get my heartbeats skip faster.
Looks like between love and bread, I would opt for bread anytime.
Any rich guy out there wants to have a gf?? I'm available. (just kidding :p)

On another note, I'm happy doing my chambering, get to learn new things everyday.
But a part of my heart still feel sad over something. Haha..

Have a good week ahead. :)

2009-08-31T20:11:00.003+08:00

Thanks for those who care about my last post, sorry for not replying cos I'm still depress about it.

Have you ever feel like shutting away yourself from everyone else after you have screwed up something badly?
That's how I feel now.
It's like a part of me has been taken away, and I have no one or no where to run to when I depress.
My parents can't give me the comfort that I want anymore.. aiks..
Perhaps LM is right, maybe it's time to find a Mr. Right but then again, involving in a r/s is just too troublesome, and I don't think I have such luxury time anymore.
Well.. At least when all else fails, I still have Jesus to keep me going. Hmm..

On a lighter note, I'm gaining a lot of weight at home, seeing what I do is mostly sitting and lying down.
I need exercise, I need to go Yoga.
Anyone in Seremban wants to go Yoga with me??

Happy 52th Birthday to Malaysia and have a good week ahead. :)

2009-08-25T19:15:00.001+08:00

If crying a 1000 times will help, I've cried a million times..

a post from my didi. XD

2009-08-07T22:11:00.000+08:00

This Sunday, a bunch of students from MMU are gonna be officially stepping out of campus, n into the working world. Yes, it’s Graduation Time!! XD.. And here’s a post I’d like to dedicate to my dear sis, Tee Chor Ping =P.. or better known as CP.. XD.. After toiling and being enslaved by books and assignments n lectures and tests and lots of other stuffs… She’s finally graduated and is currently at home baking cakes. LOL.. To all the guys out there, she’s single, available, and cute but not hot (self proclaimed), and is a budding lawyer! So, watcha waiting for? XD

From the time I first knew her.. she has been fun to bully.. but nonetheless I love her all the more.. towards the end of her uni life, I somehow managed to get to know her better, and although she’s not perfect, she’s still my sister from another mother.. XD.. I miss the times we makan supper.. I miss the times she cheered me up during emo times.. i miss kacauing her hair tho I don’t do that anymore.. sighs..

Don’t forget me after u grad kay? I’ll update u with lots of stories frm cf n stuff.. You’ll be my cute Jie for a long long time if not forever.. =P

congratulation to u n me. ^_^

2009-08-07T16:02:00.003+08:00

Convocation is tomorrow and I'm finally updating my blog today after 3 months. :p
Kudos to those who are having their convocation within these 3 days, including myself of course. XD
This post is my graduation gift to you guys, to show how dear you are to my heart. XD

Fisherjokerhoodies

Adeline, thanks for the chats and letting Huiyin and me staying at ur place ya. :)
Jasmyin, my sis, will always miss the time when we join NOC together. :)
Jeff, thanks for driving up to Cyber and saying u want to go Pg. :D

Well, I'm lazy to name everybody but you know who you are.
So whether you are in this pic or not, it doesn't matter.
All you need to know is that you'll be deeply missed by me.
Let's just say because of you, my Alpha life is more fun.
My first time having OBH is with you guys, that was my first time staying up so late outside. Haha~
I know I hardly meet up with each other , but whenever we get to spend time with each other, you guys will make sure there's time to chill out and update each other with the latest news.
And so even though we hardly meet each other, but it always feel like I have never parted long, we can still comfortably hangout and chat all night long.
My fond memory is definitely Jeff teaching us how to play Bridge and we played until 5am in the morning.
Until now, I can't still find playmates that are as fun as you guys.
Let's meet up and have another round of Bridge okay??
Thanks for making a huge impact during my Alpha year. ^_^

My Birthday gang (?)

Khan Ling, my best friend, who knows almost all my secrets, I want to be ur children's godmother. :)
Huiyin, my baby sister, though looks fragile but actually tough, I hope you'll always be happy. :)
Adelin, the determine one, I'm missing all the times that I irritate u, must remain close with me even though you become a big-shot in future kay?? :)
David, continue to buy cakes from my parents' bakery ya? They can always make wedding cake for u. XD

I don't have a name for them, so I simply name them as my birthday gang.
You ask me why??
Because we only gather during our birthday. Haha~
Huiyin is the only one from accouting, and the others are my coursemates aka asgt partners.
Thanks to them, I know I won't be lonely on my bdays.
I can't recall a year which I don't have them celebrating for me.
Our favourite hangout spot is -- US Pizza.
We have most our birthday lunches there.
It makes me wonder why sometimes.. Hmm..
But really, thanks to them I am able to cope with my degrees, pass all my subjects.
Khan Ling always borrow me notes to copy & listen to all my complaints.
Adelin always open my new mineral bottle & lending me scissors.
And not forgetting our signature doodles on table, kl-flower, ade-tree, cp-flower.
David always crack lame jokes so I can stare at him unbelievably. :p
Thanks for polishing up my part when I do with u.
How am I suppose to live without you guys now?? >.<>

My makan gang (?)

Loo Mun, the perfectionist, thanks for all the animes and mangas, let's hope we can find our Kyoya in 3D world.
June, the wonderful cook, thanks for studying with me before exam, and always being so caring and thoughtful.
William, the taikor, who more Seremban-ite than me, thanks for rememberin my clumsy moments and the games. XD
Natalie, who is always so cheerful, thanks for giving me so much love & hugs, may God bless u abundantly. :)
Lisa, my pisces-parnter, around u I seem to talk more, so let's go & kau more girls. Btw, I want an absolute bf too. ;)
Shin Dee, who graduated 1 batch earlier, u're always there teman-in me. Thank u for being a good friend. :)

The main objective of this group is.. MAKAN of course!!
All of us love to eat.
Since we have our wonderful leader, who always gather us, and 2 wonderful planners, June and Loo Mun.
They are always good at ordering food.
We always go around to eat and so I got much chubbier. >.<>

The engine ppl (?)

Pic is unavailable. >.<

Jon, don't forget our bets, and thanks for the "dinner dates" that we have. :p
Siew, miss the beach and the booze, let's do that again. Hehe~
Adrian, thanks (wink), and gain some weight ya? Don't forget to intro me to ur gf. *grin*
Wei Pin, thanks for always layan me when I'm bored. ^_^
Sim, u should get a PHD for ur minesweeper skill, & thanks for the songs. :)
Anne, thanks for the girl-outing & dinners. :)
Chun Li, my ex-hommie, will miss u & Alex lots. :)

Despite being a FBL students, I seem to have more FET friends than FBL (excluding those from my course).
Those that I know from my batch are mostly from SPB, and well, they are super duper intellectually bright (?).
It makes me feel inferior when I talk to any of them.
Our intellecutal different is like the earth and the sky, so so so far away.
Btw, anyone knows the distance between them??
But still they are very fun to talk to, life would be so dull if there's no this bunch of people to amaze with (even though I don't understand most of the times). :D
But there's 1 thing I'll never get - their craze for tennis. >.<>

My beloved course mates

Dale, thanks for the breakfast and the asgt we did together. You'll always be a dear friend to me, and thanks for always being so chilled and calm, future big-shots. :p

It will be a major sin if I don't include my beloved course mates.
They had been studied with me for the past 4 years.
We enter the exam hall together, suffered together when the asgt dates and near, screamed when the results were out, and cheered with joy when we had our last paper.
We were always negotiating with the lecturer not to have extra classes on Fridays, or not to have mid-term tests dates 2 subjects in a row.
In a way, we gave our lecturer headaches but besides that, we do not cause them much troubles.
We do listen attentively in class right?? *crossing fingers*
Let's just say we are pretty bright students and a lucky batch too.
Btw, there were a lot of pretty babes in my class too.
I always find myself lucky to be able to check out these pretty babes everyday. *wink*
Hopefully we'll all make MMU proud when we step into the working world. Haha~ '

I know I missed out a lot on this post.
There were a lot of ppl that I didn't name them personally.
But if you consider me as a friend, then upi're automatically thanked for being a part of my life and congratulated for graduating the same time as me. :)
Will always miss the time that we spent together, and forgive me for the times that I have annoyed or offended you.
Lastly, I just want to say, thanks for reading it till the end and congratulate for graduating from Money-Making University in year 2009.
Luv ya. Miss ya. Bbs MMU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

p/s. the cf peeps are not in cos u guys are mentioned in my farewell. XD

delicious Tae Yang.

2009-05-23T13:56:00.004+08:00

Allow me to introduce you my newest Korean addition... BIGBANG!!
They manage to squeeze down SS501 and became the no. 3 group in my heart.
Well down for BigBang. ;)

Shinhwa is definitely irreplaceable and so they are No. 1.
As for Super Junior, BigBang is not as funny as them, I prefer a ground which makes me laugh a lot, so Super Junior remains in the 2nd position.
So you wonder why SS501 is being squeezed down??
The answer is simple, BigBang has talents, and BigBang has Tae Yang, my newest Korean idol crush. *wink*

(all pictures credit to: Tae Yang Fansite)
This is how Tae Yang looks like.
I know he looks young.
He is young, 2 years younger than me, May 18, 1988.
Ki Bum was the 1st younger guy I mentioned in my blog and he's the 2nd one.
I realise I like single eyelid guy, with very cute smile.
The whole Korean look is really growing on me. =.="

I like his hair.
I like his sense of fashion.
He looks good in hip-hop style.
This guy has a lot of talents too.

But what I like most is this:

His smile.
I can't resist guy with a cute smile like him.
But he's not the cute type, he's more of the cool type.
I seldom find a guy cool, but the way he talks, the way he walks, the way he sings, the way he dances, it's just cool, I can't find a better word to describe it.

My last pic of him:

The drooling factors: 5 stars~!!
Well.. girls, like what you see?? *wink*
I know I like what I see. Haha~
So yeah, not only he's cool, he has a HOT body.
Just make him looks so much more delicious. *evil laughter*

"CP, stop drooling, ur saliva is everywhere!!" CP's conscience said.
*wipe mouth, clean floor*
Oh sorry.. where was I??
Oh yeah, my newest idol crush.
So girls, do check him out and let me know whether you find him cute kay??
And guys, stop being jealous over his body, I know you guys want tat too. *grin*

The other favourite member of mine in BigBang is Seung Ri (Victory).
He can also dance super duper well.

This is how he looks like.
Seung Ri's the maknae (youngest) in the group.
He's very confidence about himself, and so he leaves a deep impression on me.
Below are the 5 reasons he gave the CEO of YG to choose him as a member of BigBang:

First, the position for maknae, aren't I the most suitable?

Secondly, dance. Performance choreography.. I know them very well and I have experience. In the future when the group is performing, I can help them in this.

Third is about concept The charisma of hyungs can attract fans well. My cute, gentle image should be able to the likings of fans as well.

Fourthly, the self-confidence I have in whatever I do helps to project a better image

Fifthly, there is no reason. If Mr. YHS would give me another chance, I would never make you regret, I'll work very hard. I will use the charm and self-confidence that I’ve never shown before. If you are wiling to give me a chance, I'll really do my part well.

Seems like I have a thing for maknae of the group too.
Keep drawn to them, whether it's Shinhwa, SS501 or BigBang. >.<
That's all from me.
p/s. i'm sick, i hope i can recover soon.

i'm a Shinhwa fans for 1 year d. XD

2009-05-17T21:59:00.002+08:00

I have become Shinhwa fans for a year d~!!
Actually can't really remember when I became their fans, but I know it's near finals last year.
So I check the date on my youtube account, it's May 20th.
So I'll just assume I become their fans today, which is May 18th, since I know them through watching LL on youtube.
Got to thank the Tiun twins for introducing LL to me, and that's how I got to know Shinhwa from the 1st season.

I still remember what Taikor William said to me, "Let's see one year from now you'll still be their fans or not."
Well Taikor, I have proved myself that I'm going to like them not only 1 year, but 10, 20 years to come. Haha~
The first 3 months was the period I'm most obsessed with Shinhwa.
Was jumping up and down when someone mentioned their name.
My very first Shinhwa CD was from my bro.
It's their 9th album, a book-like form, in order to celebrate their 10th years anniversary.
I'm still obsessed with Shinhwa but gradually accepting the other Korean groups.
No matter what, Shinhwa is still my No.1, no other Korean groups can replace them.

Right now Shinhwa is in hiatus but hey they have not disbanded.
2 of the Oppas, Eric and Dong Wan are currently serving in the military.
That's why my dream is to go Korea 4 years later to see them.
Hopefully I'll save money to go by then.
Shinhwa Oppas, thanks for teachin me 6-1=0 and 6x1=1.
Just love the brotherhood that you guys hv.
Thanks for always looking out for each other.
I'll be patiently waitin for u guys to come back as long as u guys stick with each other. ^_^

I'm missin them badly d.. >.<

to my fellowsheepers.

2009-05-09T23:04:00.009+08:00

This post is meant for my Fellowsheepers.
If you're not from Fellowsheep CG, you're welcome to read too. :p

Fellowsheep CG begins on _____ and ends at 9/05/2009.
Our dearest leader is Merilyn.
Our CG members:
Male: Albert, Arthur, Asaph, Billy, Gerald, Joash, Joshua, Julian, Kean Guan, Kelvin, Nathaneal, Timothy, Yong,
Female: Deborah, Rachel, Rika, Su Ee, CP
The ratio of male to female is 2:1
The special thing about our CG is most of them are from Mechanical Engineering except for a few.
So join our CG if you intend to study Mechanical. :p

Our CG is quite a camwhore CG.
We have taken a lot of groups pics using CP's pinky's.
Btw, CP is the offical photographer of her CG even though her photography skill is.. erm.. not to be commented.
I shall reveal the group pics now.

Allow me to not give any brief descriptions on the pics.
I am too lazy to do so but all pics are arranged chronically.
Just want to say I'm obsessed with group pics.
And I'm glad we had so many wonderful memories together.

Next segment: my personal dedication to each group memer

To Meril
Thanks for being a wonderful CG leader.
Thanks for tolerating our hyperness and give us the space and freedom that we want.
Thanks for fulfilling our wish & needs.
Thanks for never miss any CG even though the next day you have 8.00am class.
Thanks for putting efforts to make our CG united.
Thanks for sms-in us every single week despite some of us never message you back.
Thanks for taking care everyone & ensuring nobody left out.
Thanks for loving us and we love you too. :)

To Joash
Thanks for blessing us so much during the 2nd sem with us.
Thanks for being sporting to wrestle with Su Ee.
Thanks for playing the float thingy with me.
Thanks for meeting up with us when we go Klang.
Thanks for being a good senior to everyone of us.
I hope that God will bless you greatly in all things you do.
Hope u get a gf soon and dun forget to invite me to your wedding in the future. :)

To Julian
Thanks for providing your transport so that we can go outing.
Thanks for providing your house to that we have a space to do bible study.
Thanks for joining the CG despite in the midst of your busy schedule for FYP.
Thanks for bringing us to eat Cheese Wantan.
Thanks for saying I’m the cutest when I ask whether my present is the cutest (even though I know u were just kidding).
Thanks for being the oldest member in CG after Joash left. :p
Thanks for being a big kor kor in the CG and give us the necessary advice. :)

To Joshua
Thanks for keeping you car so neat and tidy so that we feel comfortable when we sit.
Thanks for cheering/pujuk me when I was sad/angry.
Thanks for driving us all the way to Klang.
Thanks for guiding me and skate beside me when I need your help.
Thanks for tolerating my talkativeness and listen to whatever I say.
Thanks for having common thoughts with me.
Thanks for being close to me. :)

To Kelvin
Thanks for offering to send me back.
Thanks for lending me your medicine (still hvnt return u yet >.<)
Thanks for the encouraging words that you said to me
Thanks for teaching me the 1st step of playing Rubic Cube
Thanks for letting me hear the mp3 player.
Thanks for joining the CG after your exams.
Thanks for being such a sweet guy. :)

To Billy
Thanks for skipping your meeting and join CG.
Thanks for having all the Korean talks with me.
Thanks for promising me that if I ever come down to Mlk and ask u for dinner, you will gladly oblige.
Thanks for sitting beside me in church.
Thanks for telling me that the way the guy treats the girl in the magazine is not love, but crazy.
Thanks for being so gentle & well-mannered at all times.
Hope that you will seldom miss CF, CG and Church next year. :)

To Yong
Thanks for coming to CG almost every week.
Thanks for joining the bible study even though you’re not a Christian.
Thanks for being considerate and switching seat with me.
Thanks for trying ice-skating with me.
Thanks for coming to CF during Easter & offer to help me take picture.
Thanks for taking interest in asking Albert about the Chinese Bible.
I hope you will continue to join CF & CG next year. :)

To Arthur
Thanks for joining CG despite only a few weeks left.
Thanks for letting me knowing a real guy that is named Arthur besides Kings Arthur.
Thanks for sharing your interest in photography.
Thanks for helping me to take pics.
Thanks for listening me telling you the story of baby Jesus’ birth.
Thanks for not finding me annoying when I question you the first time.
Hope you will continue to hear more stories about Jesus. :)

To Albert
Thanks for helping Merilyn to lead during bible study.
Thanks for suggesting the plan to go Klang.
Thanks for trying new stuffs with me – eyes of Msia/ice-skating
Thanks for singing Chinese songs with me.
Thanks for entertaining me by saying “rao kou ling”
Thanks for helping me to realize my mistake.
Thanks for always following God in whatever that you do. :)

(i dun hv a personal pic with Asaph >.<)
To Asaph
Thanks for sharing your problems with us.
Thanks for making funny jokes and actions to entertain us.
Thanks for liking the food in Pap Putra (on behalf of the boss there).
Thanks for letting me win everything we fight for the front seat in whiever car both of us sitting in.
Thanks for liking to pose for my camera.
Thanks for your creative artistic sense – comic strips + scribbles
Thanks for bringing so much joy and laughter to us. :)

To Rachel
Thanks for being my CG leader in Gamma and CG member in Delta.
Thanks for being sweet and considerate at all times.
Thanks for inviting us to ur birthday party.
Thanks for looking prettier everytime I meet you.
Thanks for never reject me whenever I want a hug from you.
Thanks for trying your best in whatever you do.
Thanks for making my CG life more wonderful, whether it’s during Gamma/Delta. :)

To Su Ee
Thanks for clicking with me so well in CG.
Thanks for wrestling with Joash and make it so entertaining.
Thanks for wanting to celebrate your birthday with all of us.
Thanks for posing with Asaph and me at all time.
Thanks for entertaining us with your horoscope stories.
Thanks for your bubbly and cheerful character.
Hope tat you will go CF and CG constantly next academic year. :)

To Deborah
Thanks for willing to ask whenever you have doubts.
Thanks for coming to all the bible study sessions.
Thanks for writing the CF board during 1st and 2nd sem – your writing is nice.
Thanks for camwhoring with me, whether it’s during dinner or while we’re waiting in the car.
Thanks for sitting beside me so that I don’t feel lonely.
Thanks for wanting to spend time with me during CG before I graduate.
Thanks for being the youngest and also the cutest member in our CG

My regrets for this CG: I dun hv a complete pics with all CG members in it.. *sob sob*

I just want to say thanks to each of my CG members, from Alpha to Epsilon.
Each of you have made an impact on me and I was well-loved my many.
Thanks for making an impact on my uni life.
Thanks for tolerating me, despite how childish, how demanding I am.
To those that I have wronged and offended, I felt sorry for the past words/deeds that I had done.
Sorry for all those inconsiderate moments that you have to endure with me.
Lastly, I just want to say to every wonderful CG that I had been in:
Alvin’s (Alvin), Glas1(Joel), Newbie(Rachel), Lame(Jou Chean), and Fellowsheep(Merilyn).
Thanks for nurturing me to be the CP that I am now (I know I’m not perfect yet but well..)!!
and

“SARANGHEYO”
I will always cherish the time that we had together.
I will also miss u lots too!! ^_^

My last CG outing

2009-05-09T21:36:00.004+08:00

I had my last CG today.
I miss the Thursday but at least I joined the Saturday one.
It's not too bad after all rite??

Let's just say today was fun, very fun indeed.
We went up north to Klang, to find our beloved Joash.

He still looks healthy and fine, the same charming smile.
So girls, dun worry about him kay??

We went there to eat Klang Bat Kut Teh.

Looks delicious??
A lot of fat meat. I suka. :p

After that we went to Joash's house.
Saw a lot of his baby pics, too bad didn't see the naked ones. :p
Forgot to take pics when we were there >.<

Since we got so much time to kill.
Guess where we went??
Can't figure out??
We went... SUNWAY PYRAMID!!
Why did we go there for??
Well, the never-ending-requesting CP aka me wants to go for this.

And thus that's the reason why we went there.

This bunch of people is carefully scrutinizing the place, see how many people are falling down per minute, so they can calculate the frequents of laughing at them.

At the end, only a few of us went: Joshua, Yong, Albert & me.
We are the youthful and courageous one.
The others?? *insert _____ and ______* (just kidding :p)
Anyway, I felt down 3 times and ended up having blue black on my palms.
But not as painful as I thought, so it's okay. :p
I can proudly say I learn how to skate d.
At least I can skate a complete 2 rounds without relying on the wall to skate.
It's an achievement for someone who like me who have absolutely 0 talent in sports.
I'm not exaggeratin *put up serious face*

Our dear Albert who never misses out the opportunity to take pics.

The other mission that we had is scouting for Merilyn's present.
She has been an awesome CG leader leading us.
To thank her, each of us went to find something to show a token of appreciation.

The presents were inside the box and we were trying to hide it the whole time.

She looks so cheerful holding her gifts right??
Tempted to know what's inside??
Not going to tell u yet. *evil laughter*

A group pic before Joash left.

Joash, how could u leave us so early?? *sob sob*

Did I tell u how tempted am I to go opposite of Sunway Pyramid??
Anyone wants to go there with me??
I have no car to go there though so u might want to provide the transport..
Just kidding. XD

After Joash left, we hv to leave as well rite?
This is Arthus taking the pic of us.
Thank you Arthur.

This is our next destination.
See the Abang taking our order?
You know where we are??
We are at ... KAJANG!!
Yeap yeap, Merilyn's hometown.
And this time, we never get to go her house. Aiks aiks~

How can you not eat this when you come here??
It's KAJANG SATAY!!
Too excited already, and that explains why I keep busy camwhoring after having my share of satay.
Or was it the beer from yesterday's Jonathan's party??
Btw, happy belated birthday Jonathan. ;)
It was an awesome party with awesome food.

After finishing the delicious satay, it's open pressie time.

Tada.. to our beloved CG leader.
Aren't you touch??

This is the card that I choose for her.
Nice rite?? *beaming happily*

That concludes our last CG outing.
We are proud to set the record for going furthest of all CGs for this year. XD
This is the end of the first part of last CG entry.

my farewell speech for CF.

2009-05-05T23:57:00.008+08:00

Today is the last time I'm going CF.
I'm going to blog about the things which I intend to say on my farewell.
Things that I have said and things that I didn't get to say.
It might be long, it might be medium length, but it wil definitely not be short. :p
So yeah, hope you have the patient to read until the end.

This year, a lot of us graduating together.
Female: Sharon, K Lyn, Jess, Joanne, Renee, Elaine, Shih Wen, CP
Male: Wayne, Louis, Lucius, Julian, Kok Phin, Sylvester, Ezra, Joel
So yeah, I definitely won't feel lonely during my graduation. Haha~

I'm glad to graduate with u guys.
Our batch is definitely the most un-senior like batch. :p
But that's what makes us special, we can be close to both seniors and juniors.
We are pretty small in size, pretty lame, but we are pretty large in number.
In conclusion, I think we rocks~
Thanks for being with me since Alpha and experience so many events with me. :)

This farewell, is not what I have imagined.
Since Alpha, when I look at the senior giving their farewell speech, I always wonder what to say during my time.
I wasn't satisfied with my speech just now.
Felt like I miss out a lot of things and now I'm writing down whatver I missed. :p

Looking back at my 5 years of uni, many things had happened.
But most of them were related to CF so it's kind of true that CF have nurtured me.
I say this this before, "If it weren't for CF, most probably I won't be a virgin now."
It brought me to where God is, it brought me to church.
If there's someone I ought to thank, they have to be Dayze, Louis & Lucius.
Dayze let me know the Lulus and the Lulus brought me to CF.
So yeah, thanks for the 3 of u for making CF such a major part of my uni life. ^_^

Thank you for playing such a major part in my Alpha year. :)

Thank you for being my CG member during Alpha & Delta. :)

My Alpha year was the most fulfilling year here.
So many events had happened, so many friends I had met, whether it's through CF or not.
It was an eye-opening year to me.
My most fond memories of CF is doing NOC3.
It's the key turning point of my life.
If it's not for NOC3, I guess I won't be in CF today.
So many interesting people that I have became close with.
Many of them graduated.
Katherine, Ben, George, Tze Wei, Tze Seong, Asher, Kok Wei, Belle, Aaron, Jasmyin, Jessica and many more.
I'm too lazy to name them d. Haha~
But they are the reason why I'm still in CF today, the reason that I still get to know my juniors.
I would never ever forget their warm friendships.
To Jasymin & Jess: I always love watching what we did at during the credit part. XD

Thanks for always being there to hear me whine. :p
Jasmyin and u are like sis to me. Hehe~

During my Beta & Gamma year, I can't remember what I have really done besides joining NOC4.
I did hope there was a NOC5 during my Gamma year but it didn't happen.
I do understand why the decision is being made but well.. some part of me just hope it did happen lar. :p
But I do want to thank this person for being an important part of my life.
He had taught me a lot during this period of time.
I guess I finally know what relationship is about & also the value of money, even though I'm still a big spender. :p

Thanks for photoshopin my pics, especially my pimples.
Thanks for teaching me what love is about.

Did I tell you there's this period of time which I stop going CF?
It was during my Delta 1st sem & 2nd sem.
2nd sem is due to legal attachment and as for 1st sem, dun ask me why, but somehow I just don't feel like going.
So I only got to know the current Beta in my Delta 3rd sem.
I name Zi Jian as the most annoying Alpha & Albert as the 2nd most annoyin.
But in actual, I find both of them cute lar.
They were the first 2 Alphas that approached me & talk to me.
From them, I started to know the other Alphas in their batch.

Didi, thanks for playin such a major part in my final year.
I would definitely miss u after I graduate. :)

Sorry for the things that I have said and done.
No matter what, you're always be my favourite junior. :)

There's also another thing that I want to write down.
I finally moved out from EP during my Gamma year.
I moved in with the Tiun sisters. Haha~
It's not directed to CF, but it's indirectly.
I was a terrible housemate and yet they tolerated me for 2 years, so I wanna thank them for their patient.
The Tiun twins encouraged me to go CF & CG too. Thanks babes.

Thanks for entertaining me when I'm bored.
Bcos of u girls, I got to know Shinhwa & also Suju.
U girls are definitely my favourite twins. (I do like the other 2 pairs, but my feelings for them slightly more lar. :p)

Never tot I'll get close to u but eventually we did.
Thanks for being close to me.
Thanks for hearing me when I needed someone. :)

Finally it's time to write about my final year, Epsilon.
This year is very fulfilling indeed. Haha~
I have done so many things, taken so many pics with my pink camera (7000+ pics).
I guess I have posted enough pics for my Epsilon year d. :)
My year is indeed a transition year, experiencing the transition from YAC to campus.
I'm glad Jia Tsing's batch are given this task cos.. it's just seem so right for their batch to do. Haha~
God really does thing in His own timing.
He knew the foundation of CF is not strong to enter the campus in the beginning and so MMUCF started with YAC
And now CF had matured and grown, so we are where we are today.
Saying goodbye to YAC is difficult (I do wish my farewell to be there, surroundin by ppl who are in circle) but coming into campus means there's a more important purpose for CF.
Like I said before, make friends other than those who are in CF, it's important to know what the non-Christians are thinking, and let them know the wonders of God.
I fail to do it and so I hope my juniors could actually make it happen.

Thanks for performing the 2 songs.
I know it's pretty de-moralized when nobody hears u sing but u guys still went on.
Cheer to u guys for having such strong and beautiful spirit.
U guys (also to those not in pic) are the future of CF, I know CF will be a strong shelter for who those needed souls.

My advice to the juniors:
i) Do study hard and don't fail any subject kay? (btw, i never take any supp b4. hehe~)
ii) Attend both CF and CG. I love going CG, especially during my ____ year (actually every year lar).
Oh yeah, thanks to Alvin (graduated), Joel, Rachel, Jou Chean, and Merilyn to be my CG leaders in all these 5 years.
You guys have blessed me with fun, joy & laughter through outing and bible study.
Bcos of u guys, I look forward to CG every Thursday and I really couldn't imagine what my life would become if it's not for CG.
iii) Make a lot of friends, whether it's Christian or non-Christian.
iv) Attend prom at least once in ur uni life.
Girls: Dress ur best and camwhore the whole nite.
Guys: Gather courage to ask the girl, dun forget to get her flowers too. ;)
v) Can skip class but skip safely (not until got barred lar)
vi) Dun sleep in class (even though i do it all the time).
vii) Go around Mlk and find good food to eat from time to time.
viii) Always make time for God and serve in CF/Church if you can.
I guess for now tat's all lar. Haha~
Can't give much advice myself. I'm not really a good student you know. Haha~

Next, a few ppl that I want to dedicate to.

(Thanks CF for giving me such a unique gift but it would be better if it's not this pose lar. :p)

Thanks for introducing me online manga.
Thanks for sitting beside me in CF every time.
Thanks for the friendship that started in Alpha and which will last forever.

Thanks for the time we walked to JJ.
Thanks for all the talks that we had.
Thanks for the closeness that we have.

Thanks for not forgetting my birthday.
Thanks for being so nice and responsible.
Thanks for being you. :)

Thanks for huggin me everytime u see me.
Ur hug always make me feel complete.
And thanks for hvin an awesome personality. :)

Thanks for doing asst with me.
Thanks for hving lunch with me at times.
Thanks for not leavin me alone. :)

Thanks to God for drawing me closely to You at all time through the sermons and workshops in CF.
Thanks to all the CF Committees from my Alpha year to my Final Year.
Thanks for making CF a place that I know I can be myself without any pretending.
Thanks to pastor for being a constant factor there and always ensure things will work out in the end.
Thanks to every single person that I have met in CF for bein an awesome friend to me.
Thanks for tolerating my childishness & crappiness, despite how they irritate u.
To those that I didn't dedicate personally.
It's not that you aren't special or equally important in my heart.
Just that my head is exhausted after writing so much. Haha~
But really, I wouldn't want to miss knowing anyone of u.
Cos each of the person that I meet form the CP now u know.
I dunno whether it's a good thing or not but at least I find myself adorable lar. XD

Lastly I want to say sorry to whoever that I have hurt in these 5 years.
If I did, you can go to Wayne and give him a punch lar, he would accept on behalf of me (just kidding).
Anyways, sorry for all the mistakes that I have made, all the inappropriate words tha I said and all those unproper behhavrious tha I have done.
I'm sorry and I hope you'll forgive me so I can graduate in peace. ^_^

Lastly.. really lastly this time.
Thanks for reading it from the start till the end (hope u dun look at pics only)
And I just want to say this.
To the girls: My dearest sister, I love you.
To the guys: My dearest brother, I love you too.
Hope that CF will continue to grow and produce good servants of the Lords.
That's the end.
Yeah~!!
Good nite~ XD

[it's not the place tat's important, but the ppl who are within it]

tipsy tipsy~

2009-05-01T05:21:00.002+08:00

I feel happy, cos i'm tipsy now. XD
Nothin can make me angry, nothin can worry me.
I was emo but now I just can't smile non-stop.
Haha~

I think I dunno how to get along with ppl anymore.
Instead of making them happy, I make them sad.
I'm a failure rite?? Haha~
Sometimes it makes me wonder why I can't be like right now.

Why can't I always be like this when I'm tipsy?
I'm so easy and so much fun to get along with.
Little things can make me chuckle.
I wouldn't get angry with what people say at me.
All I would do is just grin widely and smile bcos i'm in such a happy mood.
I guess the world would become a better place if everybody in happy mood all the time.
I would also become very hyper and start babbling nonsense.
For me tipsy = Lemon Bacardi + Coke.
I have fun feelin tipsy tonite. Next step, to get drunk.XD

i do miss.

2009-04-21T23:17:00.004+08:00

Well, there's something I must admit.
I'm not one to delete my mails, sometimes I dun even bother to open them, just let them rot there, since there's unlimited space.
So yeah, most of my mails accumulated from Alpha until now.
Haha~

Looking back at the mails bring back some past memories.
I guess I miss having someone by my side.

miss the time where I can hold a person's hand
miss the time where I can hug the person anytime that I want
miss checking out the person's class schedule
miss waiting for lunch/dinner time with the person
miss thinking what he would be doing around this time.
miss sharin my feelins with the person, whether it's positive or negative
miss sms-in the person anytime that i want.

There are lots more on my list, countless in fact.
It makes me realise how much I have experienced in my r/s.
And every single incident that happened helped me grew a little. Haha~
It's not the person that I miss, but more of the things that I had done with.
But that doesn't mean I want to enter into another r/s, it's a totally different issue.
Not only I'm not ready but I also find it troublesome,
Single life is definitely more simpler, since I only need to selfishly consider myself. XD
K lar.. that's all from me.
Good nite ppl~

le banquet. :p

2009-04-19T03:11:00.002+08:00

I'll upload some pics from law nite.
The others.. if I'm in the mood.. I'll upload it on FB. haha~

The first pic.
I definitely hv to camwhore on the way there rite?
Thanks bro for fetchin me there.

Just to show u the full length, plus the 2 pretty girls standing beside me.
They are lots more pretty girls.. but not posting here. Haha~

Thanks for the beautiful flower.
You have no idea how much I was lightened up when I saw it.. :)

Thanks for taking pics withe me after being friends for 4 years.
At least I got somethin to remember u now. Haha~

The pic I like most about myself.
I think I look sexy in this pic. :p
The most sexy pic I ever hv. *blushed*
So happy camwhorin today.

Thanks for taikor sending me back too. ;)
Just wanna thank the law nite committee and everybody that I know for making a fun nite for me.
Tonite's totally rock~!!

sky

2009-04-18T09:34:00.003+08:00

Took this while walking to EP yesterday.
Wish I have a DSLR when I took this.
Not that my camera is not good, but it's not meant to take this kind of panoramic view, so yeah.. it does not justify how beautiful the sky really was.

I don't know how to photoshop picture.
So I just use the "Auto Exposure" on ACDSee.
It makes me wonder which picture is better, 1st or 2nd one??

You know what I like about sky view??
I like the way the sky is formed.
To me, it always look like painting, it looks so unreal, perhaps it's like God, He's so unreal to me, since I can't see him but yet I know He exists cos He's always there.
Sometimes I feel the sky is actually painting on the ceilings, just like the one in "The Truman show". :p

When I was young, I always thought the clouds look like cotton candies.
They look so yummy.
One of my childhood dreams is to fly to the sky, rest on the clouds when I'm tired, eat them when I'm hungry.
Think I'm being influenced too much by Doraemon. :p
But it would be awesome if I could fly to the sky.
Flying always represent freedom, isn't it?

Having lunch with a friend yesterday help me realize something.
I'm actually not that open-minded as I though.
In a way, I know I'm conservative but I thought I only applied that standard to myself but now I know I imposed it on other people as well.

Our talk is about inter-racial couples.
As we know, Malaysia is a muhibah country, so there could be a various racial combination.
I have to admit that I only have a few friends from other races.. my bad.
When I enter MMU, most people that I know coupling is usually with their own race.
But as time goes by, in my final year of MMU, interracial-couling is multiplying.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying interracial-coupling or marriage is a bad thing. I guess I just feel weird about it since I haven't give much though about it.
It will take some time for me to get used to it but well, it won't be long.

Not writing this post to offend anyone, kay??
Just writing it out to show how narrow my thinking really is.
Looks like I should go out there and mix with more ppl. Hmm..
On another note, Law Nite is tonight.
I think this year's theme is calle Le Banquet or something, so bad with names. :p
Hopefully I will lost pretty tonite. Haha~

Hope you have a good day~

a specky girl + a pink camera = c_m_h_r_

2009-04-12T22:50:00.003+08:00

I have a new specs & I love my specs lots. ^_^
It's retro. Haha~
On another note, I'm suck in doing asst.
CP, can't u just concentrate in ur works & stop surfing the net?
Shall quit babbling & let the main course begin.

This is what I do when I'm bored, I hv camera on my hand & I hv ppl to go crazy with. :p

Yo yo, check it out~

We are Queentasia~!!
XYZ: CP, I tot u aren't goin to do the post d?
CP: erm.. erm.. *speechless & run away*

The new post: biting specs with ur teeth~
sexy?

Ooo.. Big Mirror~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nat is kissable~

June is gazable~

Wei Yong is starable~

As for me.. I'm smooch-able~ :p

On another note, I wanna wish Mun Mun happy birthday~
Dearie, hope u enjoy the bday dinner~
May all ur birthday wishes come true.
Thanks for being such a great friend & care for me always. ^_^
My life is definitely more interesting having you around.
We do share similar tastes in many ways, especially our choice of guy in manga. XD
Just hope our friendships will last even after we hv long graduated from MMU.
I'll never regret knowing a friend like you & you're truly a blessing for me.
Luv ya lot~ :)

2009-04-03T13:38:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to say to ppl when i see them anymore..
I'm definitely lacking in communication skill.
Or maybe I'm just a boring person after all.
Sigh..

today is 15th March.

2009-03-15T15:28:00.003+08:00

My day didn't start off well..
I lost something very precious to me.
It's my carelessness that caused it.
I cried and I sought comfort from my mom.
I guess deep down I'm still that small girl that goes to mommy when I injured my knee.
CP.. time to grow up will ya?
Thanks mom and sorry..

I missed the Chinese Service, so only went for the English one
On the way there, I camwhored.
So yeah, will be postin my camwhorin pic now.
Beware. :p

The first pic that I camwhore. :p
The lighting is good.

The messy look.
Since the wind was blowing my hair, might as well. :p

The pic that I like most, despite the lighting is very dark.
I camwhored all the way to church.
These are the better ones.
Took a lot of pics today.
I'm contended. :p

I guess I wasn't lonely after all.
Thanks for the treat in US Pizza.
Really never expected the cake.
It's a big surprise for me. Haha~
I'm waitin to get the pics from Jess.
I forgot to take pic with Jess. ishh~

Thanks for the Shinhwa CD & the lip conditioner (is it?) & the early bday celebration.
Thanks for the makeup (June & Qin Yee) & also to those who are so amused by the make-up session (shall-not-named). :p
Thanks for willing to take me out on my bday eve.
I still have 2 bday treats from diff ppl.
Free food, here I come.

This bday I learn that one ought not to think of God only in time of troubles, not to praise God only in time of happiness.
No matter what happens, continue to believe in Him.
He works things in His own way and own time.
If it's His will, He will answer my prayer.
Btw my bday wish.. is a secret. :p

On another note, I'm goin to die from PP exam & CPC tutorial tomorrow.
I'm doomed.
So wish me luck & pray for me will ya?
Hope I find back the thing that is precious to me too.
That's all for now.

P/S. Dun forget to wish Sandra too. It's also her bday today. ^_^

I'm 23. :p

2009-03-15T01:55:00.002+08:00

I'm finally 23.
I have a meaningful bday this time.
I finally make a new friend, not really new, know him for a few years but was neveer close.
But this time I can finally & proudly saying we are friends.
So yeah.. I'm glad I made a new friend.
I hope you have fun too. ^_^

This is how I look in 23.
Taken it a few days ago in Asian Hawana Cafe.
Pretty??
At least I feel I am in this pic, since can't see much of my pimples, the wonders of Photoshop. :p

My current status: single & sometimes available, definitely not desperate.
My bday wish: As long as everyone is happy & in good health and I don't have any worries, that would be the best bday present for me d. ^_^
My r/s with God: not too healthy but I hope it would be better in the future.

Can't think of much stuffs to write now.
Will write more tomorrow.
Brain's mulfunctionin.
Nite peeps. XD

jumble posts. :p

2009-02-28T22:03:00.002+08:00

Don't u just love chick-flit (is this how u pronounce) ??
I just rewatched "How to lose a guy in 10 days"
This is a 2003 movie btw. :p

I'm so in love with Andie Anderson (the role that Kate Hudson played) right now.
She is so pretty, smart and confident.
If I'm a guy, she's really the kind of girl I want to be with.
But since I'm a girl, I just want to be like her, 1/10 will be good enough for me.
I'm not too greedy after all rite??

I adore the yellow dress that Kate Hudson wore in this movie too.
She looks so elegant.
It's amazing how a girl can look this dazzling in yellow gold-ish dress.
I'm very happy now. XD

On another note, I felt so tired of goin out d.
Dun feel like goin out for a long long time.
Now all I feel like doin is just stayin at home n lazin around so that I dun spend so much. :p

Since got ppl said my blog is boring to read without any pic, I shall cause damage to ur eyes by puttin some of my vain pics today. :p
These pics are very old pics btw.

Kinda miss my long hair.
This pic is to tell u how long my hair was back then.
I love the way how may hair falls so naturally. hehe~
I forgot when I took this, should be in gamma. :p
I hv thick lips. >.<

This is how it looks when I put it down.
Hmm.. not too need rite??
If I keep long hair, what hairstyle should I cut??
But I really like this pic with LM. Haha~

This is how I look when I tie my hair halfly(is there such a word??).
Btw, I think this is the only pic I have with Samuel Yau. :p
And I wonder where my top went.
I haven't seen it in ages. =.="
The reason I'm posting this up is bcos I'm on the verge of either lettin my hair grow or cuttin it.
It's quite annoyin currently.
But well, I really miss hvin long hair.
So yeah.. what do you think??
Do I look better in long or short??

My 2nd last sidetrack of this post.

I really miss my Gamma CG.
I really miss the ppl inside, and how everybody clicks so well with each other.
The intimacy feeling too, it's somethin that well.. it's hard to come by.
The right song to my feeling towards NEWBIE CG: A moment like this by Kelly Clarkson.
:p
One regret I have is not having camera back then.
If I have it, I could take their pics more often.
And bcos of tat, I dun want to miss any moment that I have with my current CG.
But don't get me wrong kay.
I think my CG now is awesome.
But it's a different kind of feeling.
NEWBIE is like meeting with family members which I know I'll be very comfable while FELLOWSHEEP is like hangin out with a bunch of very close friends, which I know it'll definitely fill with joy and laughter, which can make me forget my worries.
Thus I can't compare both of them.
They are equally great for me. Haha~

My very very last sidetrack of this post is well.. Happy Birthday to Miss Lisa~!!

I have gotten closer to her this academic year.
It's easy to get close to ppl after goin to bday gatherings together for many times and also karoke sessions too.
Haha~
Miss Lisa here is a smart girl who's very fun to be with.
I talk a lot with her when we are sitting together.
She stimulates me to talk. Haha~
Very very bright girl, love anime and manga also.
Still single, available, not forgettin pretty too. :p
And she wore skirt today. Woohoo~
She has such a bright smile rite??
Miss Lisa, Happy 23rd bday~!!
I wish all your bday wishes come true and I hope you will stay this happy always.
Really enjoy the time that I spent with you.
You're truly an awesome girl. Hehe~
Once again, Happy Birthday!!

That's all for my posts today.
It's time to start workin d. Haha~
Tas ppl. :)

an article from Star

2009-02-26T00:03:00.003+08:00

An interesting post from the Star Newspaper.
Thanks Miss L for showing me.
I'll quote this part particularly:

Level one is like tofu where the male organ is large but not hard,
level two is similar to a peeled banana where it’s not hard enough for penetration,
level three is like an unpeeled banana where it’s hard enough for penetration but not completely,
and level four is similar to a cucumber where it’s completely hard and fully rigid

Whoa~ Kinda impressive ey？？
I would never thought seein this in a Malaysian newspaper.
This country does impress me at times. :p

Good nite ppl~ :)

short post

2009-02-25T00:47:00.002+08:00

I realise the more I face the crowd:

the more fake i'll be
the more annoying i'll be
the more ugly i'll be

I really really dislike myself & I bet many find me irritatin too..

On the other note, had an awesome BSAD this year.
I had fun.
The Alpha guys are awesome. They cracked me up.
I like the Acapella too, whether it's from 779i or the girls.
Everybody is awesome and thanks for makin it fun in my last BSAD. :)
Good nite ppl.

Happy Birthday Taikor!!

2009-02-23T23:02:00.002+08:00

To a big brother who is there:

Today is his birthday and I want to wish him, "Happy Birthday, Taikor!!"
He is one of the nicest guy that I have met and that's why he is always surrounded by girls.
Want a proof??

There there, isn't he lucky??
How often a guy gets to go out with 8 girls??
8 pretty girls summore. Haha~

Taikor William is always willing to help.
He is always willing to help if you just ask.
Being slightly older than us, he always exposed LM and me to new stuffs which we have never ventured before.
Let's just say thanks to him our level of ______ increased.
Taikor, thanks for teachin us all these "necessary stuffs". :p

It's always fun to talk to Taikor William.
It's fun to share our views on life, on r/s and on anything that we could think of.
After all, slightly older than us means he eats more salt than us.
And he is a very patient listener too.
So really, it's fun talkin to him. LM agrees with both hands up too. XD

Taikor William is also one that brings us around to eat.
He knows all the good food, not only in Melaka, Sban also.
Sometimes it makes me feel ashamed of myself cos there were many good food that he knows I never tried b4. Ishh ishh~
One talent that he has is stuffin us with food.
He's one of the reason that June, LM & I put on weight lar.
He's so so so evil rite?? :p
But then again, how can we resist the super nice food that is in front of us. Haha~
So yeah, taikor, continue to bring us go makan kay??

If there's one thing that I hope he can change.
I really hope he could try a new hairstyle lar.
Taikor, time to change to a more younger n trendy hairstyle lar. Haha~
Really really wish to see you looking younger.
This is one of the birthday wish that LM and I have for u. Touching rite??

At the end, I just want to conclude that Taikor William really is a very very nice guy.
That's why he got a lovely gf called June and a lot of good "heng dai" back in his hometown.
I'm sure Taikor William will have a very bright future & he will always be handsome & smart as he is know.

Once again, a Happy Birthday shoutout from LM n me!!

2009-02-15T23:07:00.002+08:00

I saw ___ today.
I'm happy. ^_^
Today is a good day after all.

V day. ^_^

2009-02-14T23:54:00.002+08:00

Valentine's Day.
A day many would find it overrated but they would still celebrating it. Irony, isn't it??
To me, it's the only day that I feel I want a bf, since I see couple anywhere.
But to my surprise, I don't actually need one after all.
In fact, this year Valentine's Day is one of the best Valentine's ever. :)
I went for badminton, movie and church.
Instead of spending it with one person, I got to spend it with a bunch of awesome friends, and of course, my awesome Father in Heaven. So so so much cooler rite??

But my right hand does look lonely when I look at it sometimes.
So I always imagine God holding my hand when I walk to campus alone. Haha~
But oh well, after tonite's message, I guess my right hand will feel lonely for a long long long time. :p

Anyway, I'm happy for another reason too: I got a message from him. Haha~
U ask me who??
It's Andy Oppa!!
He left his fans message, wishing them Happy Valentine's Day. XD
(I know many of you can't tahan. Haha~)

Good nite ppl~ *muakz*

2009-02-13T22:18:00.001+08:00

feel like seein u.. sigh..

i'm suck at titling..

2009-02-07T11:33:00.002+08:00

I'm selfish.
I'm critical.
I'm self-centered.

Realizing all my weaknesses make me feel like shunning myself away from the world again.
Sigh.. I really hate myself.
Perhaps I should be embarking in a soul-searching journey again.
Which country should I go then??
Backpacking across Europe has always been my dream.
Perhaps Europe is my ideal place for my soul-searching journey.
Then again, without "vitamin M" such trip would only remain as dreams rite??
Oh well..

Anyway.. I guess until I stop being so self-centered and critical, I would be disappearing for a while.
Hopefully not too long.
Till then.. Adios~

happy belated 21st birthday to Teapot~

2009-02-02T22:46:00.003+08:00

Went through my previous posts and I realised I forgot to write something important.
I forgot to wish my bro, CW happy 21st birthday.
Hmm..
So I'm going to write a post for him today after 1 month delay. Hahaha~

My bro is called CW, a December boy.
His friends called him Teapot since our surname is Tee.
In the future, his kids will be called Teacups since he is Teapot. *wink*

CW is pretty vain cause he said he's handsome everyday. *shake head*
But he's not too ugly lar (not too fat, not too tall, not too dark, consider okay lar)
If not, he can't get a pretty gf rite??
Did I tell u he like to take vain pics too??

Even though he's pretty vain, but he likes to make a lot of funny faces.

This is one of them.
The only one that I have mood to take it down.
Other times I find it annoying. :p

My bro likes to sing, thus he likes to go Karaoke.
He can't sing as well as my dad, but his singing is not that bad since my ears can tolerate. (I'm pretty fussy kay??)
One talent that he has is modifying songs with his own words.
He likes to correct me if I sing wrongly too.
Well bro.. just let me be will ya?? :p
Oh yeah, he likes to correct on my pronunciation too since I can't pronounce my words properly. (CW: if u bite ur words and sing the songs correctly, then i won't correct them rite??)

My bro likes to nag CS and me too.
I do agree we have lots of things to be nagged but well, tired of hearing things over and over again. (CW: that's bcos u guys keep repeating the same mistakes!!)
His favourite line for CS and me: "Yi ren sao yi ju la!"(CW: that's bcos u guys are arguing.)(CP&CS: NOOOoooo!! We Are NOT!!)

Despite the complains about my bro, I do think I have the best bro in the world.
I have a bro who can:

cook
fix
do house chores
drive
take care of sick people
sing
talk
play mahjong
choose clothes for me
make cocktails

and etc. (too many, too lazy to list)

He can squeeze water out too~

Even though CW likes to irritate me by touching my hair or putting his hands on my shoulder or askin me to call him "kor kor", but I'm still very thankful to have a brother who I can rely and knows me like nobody does.
He's one of the closest person to me, and I know he will always be there for me no matter what happen.
He takes care of me very well (so well that other girls envy kay) and thus many actually thinks that he's the older one but well, CW, I'm still ur jie jie no matter what happens lar, so call me jie jie ya~ *evil laughter*

Well bro, even though we fight a lot, even though I never say "I love you" but I truly do.
Other than God, mommy, daddy, u rank the 4th position in my heart as the person I love most.
Despite the times I throw tantrum at u, I made u angry, or called u "idiot", I never meant to hurt u, I guess it's just a sibling thingy, we know no matter how angry we are at that moment, everything will be alrite the next day.
Thus I really want to see u success in the future lar.
I want to see u havin a good wife, having a few kids, havin a successful career and achieved all ur dreams.
For now, I want to see you doin well in ur studies & have a lot of crazy friends that you could go crazy with (poppi no, but mahjong & karaoke anytime can).
So yeah, bro hope all ur 21st birthday wishes come true and you're always the best bro in my heart. :)

Once again, Happy Belated 21st Birthday bro!!
Love u lots~ *muakz* *hugzz*

happy birthday to my Andy oppa~

2009-01-20T22:25:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to Andy Oppa!!
21st January is Andy Oppa's birthday.
I'm sure many of you still remember who he is.
He's a member of Shinhwa.
Handsome, charming, and cute, I was once crazily obsessed with him.
I still like him now but I gave up on the thought of marryin him d. :p

Andy Lee Sun Ho, hope you have a wonderful birthday~
Hope you will always stay handsome and cute.
Hope you will gain great success in your career.
I still can't resist your cuteness in and wish you can dance as how you used to dance last time (love your heartdance though).
Once again, Happy Birthday!!

no title.

2009-01-16T21:06:00.002+08:00

It's so hard to blog these days.
I have lost the patient to sit down and finish writing an entry and click the "publish post" button.
In fact, I'm too lazy to social with anyone these days.
So I don't even bother to on my ym or msn, in fact I can't remember the last time I on my msn. :p

Holiday has been good to me, u can see the proof by seeing how heavy I weight now.
So many fats on my thighs and tummy. >.<" Can't resist the tasty biscuits which can be found everywhere at my house. Make a promise with CS to go swimming everyday but I doubt I'll end up going any. Lol~
Anyway, enjoy the remaining 2 weeks holiday from MMU.
This is also my last holiday in MMU.
When I'm in the mood, I'll be posting another one that write my thoughts.
But for now, I'm just writing this to show that I've not abandoned my blog despite the lack of update. *guilty*

Have a good day everyone~ ^_^

2nd post of CJW~

2009-01-05T23:01:00.003+08:00

I just posted about my current crush, Choi Jung Won right??
I'm posting him again today.
I wonder how long will my crush last this time.
Andy Oppa's one ended when I see him with a hairstyle I didn't like.
These few days I slept thinking of Jung Won, I woke up thinking of him, I even did my exam papers with him on my mind, told myself that I would quickly finish this paper, so that I could go home and stare at him dreamily.

Yeap yeap.. just like this, baby~
all pictures credit: JungWon's baidu bar

I know what you guys are thinking.
You're goin to think history is repeating itself, this is exactly how I behaved when I fell for Andy Oppa rite??
Oh well.. I don't deny, but at least I'm honest with my feelings right??
I just can't resist this guy, he's so irresistibly hot and cute.
I mean Andy Oppa is cute, but this guy, well.. he just made me melt when I see him smile.

This is the killer smile. The best teeth for 2003~

I'm so in love with this expression of his when he said "this is mustard".
He looks so so so gorgeous!!
I have been watching this video clip for more than 10 times already, which is very unusual for me cause I get bored with things pretty quickly.
Normally if I like something, I'll watch or read it for 2 or 3 times, then I'm done until a couple of months gone by.
For Jung Won, I'm willing to finish a whole plate of vege that I hate provided he feeds me.
That's exactly how much I like him NOW. XD
Oh btw.. if you ask who I like more, Andy Oppa during that period or Jung Won now, my answer is definitely Jung Won.
You ask me how I know??
I hv never thought of finishing a whole plate of vege for Andy Oppa. :p

This is taken a few years in "Star Golden Bell".
How can he be so so so good looking??
He doesn't change much rite??
Btw.. I have a nickname for him, my "Sunshine Prince".
Don't laugh, I know it's mushy but that's who he is for me.
If I really have a dream guy, then I think he is my DREAM GUY, I couldn't imagine liking anyone more than him now. *blushing*

I melt, I melt, I melt melt melt!!! Oh no!! where has CP disappear to??

,/p>
Drooling rates: 10 stars!!!!!!!!
Alright, I know I'm exaggerating but how can he be so so so sexy??
He has the lean abs which LM likes.
Even QY agrees that this guy is super duper good looking.
*CP turns into a big bad wolf* Yummy~ I feel like eating him!!

Thus, for this year birthday present, I want this:

His singles~
Doubt I will get it, but well.. wishful thinking. :p
His song "Sunshine on Summer Time" is kind of cute. ^_^
Love his voice. *grinning happily*
I hope I can get my hand on his poster. I want it so so so badly now.
You ask me what I'll do after getting the poster??
Of course I'll be smooching him non-stop!!

Sorry for the hyperness today.
As you can see, I'm super duper excited at the sight of him.
Me doing badly in the exam also contributed to my current state.
So bear with me ya.
Btw.. Shinhwa is still the best group in my heart. Haha~
No one can replace them. :)

Good luck in finals~!!

p/s: still contemplating whether to call Jung Won oppa or not. I know he doesn't knwo me but.. Aiks.. why must he be so so so gorgeous?? *sigh heavily*

my first crush in the year of 2009~

2009-01-03T10:54:00.002+08:00

Ｉcan't resist him!!
Well.. yeah, u're right.
It's another Korean dude again.
But this guy is so damn cute, just the type that I like. *wink*
I can't resist his hotness.
I shall introduce you my latest crush.

Name: 최정원 / Choi Jung Won (Choe Jeong Won)
Also known as: Choi Jeong Won
Profession: Actor and singer
Birthdate: 1981-May-01
Height: 184cm
Weight: 68kg
Star sign: Taurus
Blood type: A

Got his biography from Dramawiki.
Well, u ask me what do I like about him??
His body, his height, his eyes, his smile, his voice and everything about him.
He makes me grin from one ear to the other. Wheee~~

This guys is such a cutie.
I like the way his hair is style, I like his hair that way.
Formerly he's from a group called UN, then he was in hiatus for 2 years to cure his anxiety disorder and now he's back.
Found him in this episode of Star Golden Bell.
He's just too cute

Drooling factor: Well.. so obvious right?? :p
But I don't really like this hairstyle and he looks kinda dark.
I wonder whether he tanned it or the picture came out like that.
Anway, he's my first crush in 2009 and I'm happy!! ^_^

Btw.. happy birthday to Julian and Yong.
Both of them are my CG members. Haha~
Have a blessed birthday. :)

bloodtype babies story 2

2008-12-23T00:23:00.003+08:00

I'm going to post about the blood type babies again.
Btw, don't u find them cute??
Hope you enjoy it. :)

The degree of Patience
How each blood type try to hold their anger

A baby: (tahan.. tahan..)
A type: definitely can hold his anger
Because he doesn't get angry easily, so he gets gastric problem easily

B baby: Huhu~ So comfortable now~ Do you guys think it's good to be direct and honest now??
A baby: He just said whatever is on his mind
O baby: Why got this kind of people one??
AB baby: (speechless)
B type: If he wants to get angry, he would just get angry
Maybe he doesn't understand why he needs to hold back..?
Anyway his mental condition is always the best

O baby; Tat fellar is like... @#%^...
A baby: I must jot down into my diary
O type: He let go of his anger by chatting
Can release pressure but.. people around him will be tired

AB baby: ...
A baby: He's like that for 30 mins
B baby: What is he doing?
O baby: He's just looking at the sink after filling it. He think some sea monster will come? Better go seaside lar.
AB type: Whenever he's upset or angry, he would just stare at a bowl of water, it feels like there's some kind of angel will appear.
Water angel, don't you think it's cool
The End

I had a quiz today.
It reminded me of my Malaysia Legal System midterm-test during my Beta year.
Let's just say they were equally bad.
I know nothing, I can squeeze out nothing.
But surprisingly I'm not too upset, perhaps I know crying doesn't help.
Oh well..
Anyway, Christmas is around the corner.
I just hope I won't be lonely for this Christmas. :p
Can't wait for the Christmas party tomorrow or is it today?? :)
Have a nice day~

bloodtype babies story 1

2008-12-21T23:59:00.006+08:00

My dear friend, Miss Chan send me this.
I can't resist sharing them and thus here it is.
Hope you guys enjoy reading them. :)

What are their purposes in living??

obligation, responsibility, mission to fulfill
cannot ignore temptation
A baby: please take it away
A type: they are tied down by obligation and responsibility

Highly intersted
B baby: Miao~
B type: obsessed with the things that they are interested with

Desire
O baby: Erm..!!
O type: It's the weakest in resisting temptation

However, once they set a target, they will have great self-resistant

A baby: Haha, a bunch of inferiors
AB type: live to feel more superior than the others.

I spent my weekend doing assignment and I didn't go anywhere.
But able to go back home is a great feeling.
I'm glad I went back.
If I were in Malacca, I bet my assignments still not done.
Too many temptations here. Lol~

Had an aweomse CG last Thursday.
It had been a long time since I have that much fun.
Hopefully everyone that went had a good time.
Love my CG lots.
U guys really brought me a lot of joy & laughter.
Thanks.
Hope we don't bring too much trouble for Merilyn too. :)

Have a nice day~

too lazy to name. bleh~

2008-12-16T00:33:00.008+08:00

Just talked with a friend about relationship. Let's call him M.
Told M how I hate getting emotionally affected by the person I like, how I hate missin him when he's not around, how I hate havin feelins for him while he doesn't feel the same way towards me.
M told me that a friend of M told M to enjoy these moments.
You don't get to feel that way again after you're married.
Besides, when you think back of these feelings in the future, they will put a smile on your face.
And these words.. they knocked some senses into me.
I never view them in such light.
But then again, I'll be havin these feelings for a long long long time, since I don't think I'll be marrying another 10 years' time, it seems kinda troublesome..
So how about you??
Would you view as how M's friend view it too??

On another note, I'm posting what my friend wrote for me:

Lesson No. 1: Don't be so shy.
Resulting effect: CP is no longer shy.
Authority: CP can dance in front of the class w/o feeling shy.
End result: CP no more shy. Yeah!

I was trying to show off my dance moves (which I don't have any) since the lecturer not there yet.
There were other people around too (a few only lar), but then they are used to my goofiness, and hence I became shameless.
Oh well.. no use being shy when people around me disagree greatly with the fact that I'm shy right??
But in actual fact I'm a pretty shy girl lar. (Everyone: yeah right!!)
Btw.. I promise my friend that I'll introduce her in my blog.
She has a lovely name called Adelin, slim and sweet looking.
My course mate since Beta so you can assume that she know me pretty well.
Smart and capable too.
Last Friday she was forced sitting beside me since I'm a very lonely person with no friend, and she's kind enough to do so.
What a sweet and lovely friend right?? *wink*

Last one before I end this entry.
You know the pimples on your face is in very bad condition when a guy said this to you.
"Sippy, you can try using OXY for your pimples. The OXY 10 one."
Guess what my reaction is??
I rolled my eyes and said "You want me to bite you??"
I can be pretty violent at times. :p

There.. done for my crappiness today.
The pic of the day will be:

The three lovely ladies: Adelin, KL & Huiyin.
I was laughing taking this pic.
But then not crazy enough lar.
Girls, you gotta level up ur craziness next time but I know you done ur best d lar. Haha~
Sometimes I felt sorry for these 3 for knowing me.
But what to do, having a friend like me is part of life as well. XD
Btw.. Esther, no complaining no pics in my blog d lar.
Have a nice day.
Tas. :)

p/s. do support my bro's MMU Law Moot Carnival at President Square. It's from Monday to Friday this week. Thanks ya~

aCt2: The Given Gift

2008-12-12T10:35:00.003+08:00

I ought to write this post earlier, perhaps on Wednesday.
But I guess it's not too late to write it now.
It's my blog anyway, I have the freedom to write whatever I want and when I want, right??

Another Christmas Thingy: The Given Gift
I guess this event will be my final big event of my uni life.
Let's just say after everything that I've gone through, I never regret any part of it.
It's worth coming back a week earlier for the intensive training. :)

I always like joining Musical, even though I can barely sing and dance.
NOC3 left me a deep impression, it created strong bonds for everyone that participated in it.
I got close to the seniors who have long graduated from CF: Ben, George, Catherine, Samuel Ng, Win Nee, and many more.
As for my batch, I got really close to Jasmyin & Jessica, seeing the amount of time that we often hang out with each other.
They are my first girlfriends who I can refer them as my sister and able to trust them no matter what happens.
Parting never seems to be hard for me until Jasmyin had to go Cyber.
I'll always remember that moment.

Compare to aCt2 and NOC3, I played a different role.
I'm no longer an Alpha, no longer the youngest in the CF.
In fact, I'm now one of the oldest girl there, even though I'm always acting childish. Lol~
For me, I get along better with juniors compare to seniors.
You can't blame me, having 2 younger brothers at home helps me to connect with juniors better.
I can fool around with them, crap anything and knowing that they wouldn't think of me differently.
This year Alphas are awesome.
They look cool but in actual, they are pretty outgoing and mischievous, click well with me. ;)
Instead of me guiding them, I gained a lot from them instead.
Why are the juniors so independent?
It's a pity that I'll be graduating after this academic year, wish I can spend some more time with them.
But really, thanks for this batch, their friendships really warm my heart. :)

Frankly speaking, the emptiness of the post-aCt2 syndrome hasn't sunk into me yet.
The length of practice which aCt2 had is relatively short compare to NOC3 and NOC4.
I can't compare it with aCt1 since I'm not involved.
I actually wish we have longer practice duration. Haha~
But really, God has blessed this musical play with lots of talents, it's like every piece of jigsaw fits into the puzzle perfectly.
I can't imagine another person playing as Timmy or somebody else singing Britney Spear song.
And also the amount of props that aCt2 has, Fefe, Jerome, Renee and others that helped out really impressed me with their creativity, they've really done an incredible job.
So yeah, put everyone and everything together you have a team which has honoured and praised God greatly.

Thanks God for the:

wonderful weather for that night.
director to come out with such a wonderful script and such patient with the casts and crews.
various people which had sponsored so generously
musicians to play the music beautifully.
backup singers to sing so melodiously
prop department for making such wonderful props.
backstage people to help make all the transactions of scenes beautifully.
lighting to on the light in the exact timing.
media to show the necessary lyrics on the screen.
usher to handle the crowds and be friendly with each of them.
publicity to come out with such fun and attractive publicity.
dancers to dance so energetically.
actors to put in their efforts and act as realistic as possible.
audiences who came, watched and gave great support.
everyone who has prayed hard for this event
giving me such an unforgettable memory.

Doubt anyone has the patient to read until the end.
But if you do, thank you. :)

Lastly, I'll end up with this pic with Jess.
Somehow I wish Jasmyin would be in this pics too.
Hope you guys have a happy weekend. ^_^

crappy??

2008-12-08T00:26:00.003+08:00

I feel it's just hard to blog about something these days.
I've written at least 5 drafts.. since the last post and I published none.
You ask me why??
Well.. I felt sleepy after blogging half way and the next day I don't feel like continuing again, so tada.. I have accumulated so many drafts which I don't plan to delete any. :p

Anyway, I'm writing this post to remind myself how short a time that I have before aCt. Today is the first time I can wake up slightly later, which is after 9 plus.
Then linger around my bed and until 10 something.
And yes.. I felt super duper happy!! *big grin*

It's been a while since I have such luxury time for myself.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining.
I'm just glad that I get to know the importance of being alone and finding peace with myself.
And I can't wait to go back Sban, and eat all those food that I miss.
But before that, I have to concentrate and do my best for aCt.
After all, I'm doing it for God's glory, I wouldn't be where I am now if it's not for Him.
CP, and everybody else involving in aCt, gambate!! >^_^<

simple??

2008-11-28T11:12:00.004+08:00

I was chatting with a friend recently.
He was telling me this: "I don't mind going out with simple girls, as long as they're simply irresistible."
My instant reply was this: "Simple girls doesn't equal to simply irresistible. In fact, they are simply resistible."
What conclusion can you draw??
This friend of mine only attracted to hot girls. *wink*

There are 2 aspects to look at when it comes to simple: simple in terms of look and simple in terms of mindset.
So which one would you prefer??
Of course if you're seeking for first impression, looks always get the first upperhand compare to mindset.
Who cares about what you think??
Who cares about how much do you know??
My Andy Oppa, I'm drawn to his looks, rather than his talents.
It's not that he doesn't have any, but does it matter knowing it when I know I would never meet him in real life??

Contradicting with my statement above, I believe there are simple girls who are simply irresistible.
These girls are simple looking not bcos they aren't pretty, but some of them just spend lesser time in dressing up.
They show their attractiveness through other aspects, like inner self perhaps.
Jess is one good example of a simple yet irresistible girl.
Don't get me wrong.. Jess is pretty looking but I believe her character is the one that draws everyone close to her.
Something like Queen Esther.
She's cool, calm, creative, confidence.. the list just go on.
Which guy can resist Jess lar?? Hehe~

Speaking on a personal view.. what I believe is that looks alone would not carry a relationship too far. Communication is important. It would be hard if the other party could not connect with you.
It would be even worse if both parties have different intellectual levels.
The guy/girl would be looking blank at the other, not knowing how to respond.
Then again, various people has different criteria.
To some, good looking alone is sufficient.
To some, it would be awesome to have both the looks and characters.
In the end, it just depends on the individual, what he/she seeks.

As for me.. Youtube shall remain my faithful companion as long as I get to see cute Korean male stars.
This is the faith of a girl who lacks in term of look and mindset.
Haha.. I have nothing to complain.
After all, I have a great mighty God who loves me for who I am. ^_^

p/s.. i wish i'll get better soon.. >.<
btw.. jess.. dun kill me for usin u as example kay?? luv u lots ^_^

thank God for an awesome day

2008-11-25T23:06:00.002+08:00

God has given me an awesome day.
I can't ask for another better day.
He makes me smile from morning to nite.
Thanks God for blessing me so much. ^_^

Good nite, ppl~

happy birthday to a special friend of mine

2008-11-24T00:43:00.002+08:00

To a special friend who bullies me all the time.
To a special friend who never calls me Jie directly.
To a special friend who sings Chinese old song with me.
To a special friend who is willing to spend time and talk to me.
To a special friend who always says he likes the hottest girl in CF.
To a special friend who is similar to me but more mature than me.
To a special friend who does not get angry when his face is creamed.
To a special friend who is willing to sit beside me in bus, cf & mamak stall.
To a special friend who always walks me home, makes sure I reach home safely.
To a special friend who I will cherish all my life for playing an important role in my final year of Uni life.

Jian, Happy 19th Birthday!!
Hope all your birthday wishes come true.
Hope all your dreams come true.
Thanks for blessing people around you and it is awesome to know someone like you.
Lastly, I pray that God bless you abundantly.
Have an awesome birthday.^_^

To another special friend of mine, I miss you more than ever this time around.
I miss those times when we were praticing for NOC III.
I miss those times when Jess, you and me bond together closely.
I miss those times that we told each other our problems.
I miss those times that we were playing around and Sam recorded it in video.
I miss those times that we went out for dinner and update with each other.
If I cry during the farewell in Alpha cos you had to go Cyber, I will still cry now for not seeing you around in aCt 2.
Gal, I miss you lots. I really really miss you..

erm.. u sure u want to read??

2008-11-23T03:46:00.004+08:00

She woke up in the middle of the night.
1 or 2 mosquitos buzzing around her ears.
She couldn't bear the sound so she sat up.
She reached for her handphone, which was beside her bed.
It was 3.10 am.
Suddenly, she wondered when did her handphone took over the role of her watch.
She had no idea where was her watch too.

She sat up, figuring that she might had insomnia, wondering what she could do.
Reminiscing the past seem to be a good idea.
She thought hard for a while.
No.. it's not working.
Her mood turn worse since she was moody the past few days.
She decided to do something else.
"I know.. I'll just on my laptop." Just like most college students who couldn't survive without computer & internet, she on it.
She didn't plan to on her laptop for that day but eventually she did.

She checked on her Facebook, viewing the comments that ppl gave on her video that she uploaded.
"The respond is not bad. Looks like many people like it." It was an arm wrestling video, featuring 2 of her CG members and thanks to Kelvin, her CG member who took it.
She wished she could create more memories with her CG before she graduate.
Her CG has always been important to her.

She then opened her Hotmail & Gmail, which had not been opened in ages.
"It's time to open before they cancel my account again." She thought.
There were many mails but she's too lazy to read so she clicked the "X" button on the top.
"Oh well, at least they won't close my accounts for another 3 months."
Then she's lost again, not knowing what do.

"I know.. I'll just update my blog."
And so she write this entry diligently and played Freecell game when she was bored.
By the way, she could play Freecell very well. She's not boasting.
Finally, the entry came to an end.
She wondered whether anyone would be reading this entry.
"I'm sorry for those that read this entry. I hope they survive after vomiting blood." She thought guiltily.
Still, she clicked on the "Publish Post" button, off her laptop and go to sleep.
"I hope I'll be able to stay awake in church tomorrow. I also hope all my pimples will disappear when I wake up too."
That was her last thought before she fell sleep.
And now she's deep in slumber again until the alarm in her phone wakes her up.

2008-11-13T12:45:00.002+08:00

Can't think of anythin interestin to write for the moment.
Thus the hiatus of inactive of my blog will continue until somethin interestin happen in my life. right not it's quite peaceful. :p
Btw.. I'm obsess will SS501 now. I'll quote from Student 2 of Scene 11, "Hmm.. the guys are pretty cute, ey?" *wink*
Welcome to a new sem and tatas. ^_^

check this blog if u're free

2008-10-14T14:19:00.002+08:00

Mun Mun send me this blog which is very fun to read but too bad it's in mandarin.
I highly recommend for those who know mandarin to read. XD

dinner & bets.

2008-10-13T20:18:00.006+08:00

I always have a good time going out with this close friend of mine, J cos it's fun to talk to him.
Tonite's dinner was as usual, filled with laughter. XD
Writing about J made me realised something.
I never take a picture with him before.
Great.. we are friends from Alpha and I don't have a single pic with him.
How am I going to remember him in future lar??
Oh well.. there's always Friendster & Facebook.
Life is so convenient these days. *wink*

In tonite's dinner, we made 2 bets.
I seldom made bets unless it is worth enough to make.
First bet: he promised to buy an air ticket to bring me in whichever country that he will reside in the future, even if it's doing humanitarian work in a third world country, provided he will actually reside there.
Well.. of course I make this kind of bet with him. Who wouldn't? XD
Did I ever tell you one of my dreams is to travel around the world??
I wish to visit at least 50 countries in my life time lar. Haha~

Second bet: After I start working, within a year if there is at least 1 guy approaching me, I'll have to treat him with Mediterranean food with wine which cost around RM 200 (provided if I really start working :P). Of course he's not going to win the 2nd bet lar.
Haha~ I'll make sure I show my true colour from the beginning, so that no guys dare to approach me. :p

Lalala~ Did I tell you how happy I am now??
I'm writing this down so that I can remind him in the future lar. Haha~
My blog does serve a diary purpose for me you know?? *grin*
Btw.. thanks for the jokes, It really helped clearing away my exam blues, seeing how badly I did in my paper. ^_^

Good luck in the remaining papers. Ta. ;)

searching.. impossible.

2008-10-12T21:33:00.005+08:00

Have you ever tried to search for someone.. which is impossible to find??
I'm searching for this person I know (kind of).
We are from the same primary primary school.
I was in standard 1 while he's in standard 6.
So what is so special about this person??

When I was in standard 1, my classroom happened to be beside the standard 6 class room.
Back then, my primary school, S.J.K. (c) Kuo Min Seremban was a very small school (now an A-grade school).
There was only one class for standard 6.
I was very cute in standard 1 (don't compare with now lar).
So having a very cute fact, very short height, I was a pet or toy to those big kor kor and jie jie (back then).
Every recess time, I'll go to their class, since it's just beside and most of them will play with me.
I was kind of popular among them lar. Haha~
I'm close to most of them except a few. Can't remember the reasons d. :p

This particular kor kor, which I'm trying to search is supposingly my kai kor.
He asked me whether I can become his kai mui or not.
As a young and innocent girl, with mentality age of 7 (or maybe lower), of course I said can.
Another girl who was there (she's from my class) also said she want to be his kai mui.
So this kai kor has 2 kai muis, what a happy kai kor rite??

Now, that's the end of story.
I can only remember until this part.
The problem is I don't know what happen after I become his kai mui already.
I don't remember what his name or his face either.
But I do hope to find him back, so I can at least remember his face and name.. or at least let me know how he is doing. I'll be content as well.
After all, I'm not a greedy person. :p

That's the end for this post.
Happy studying for remaining papers. Ta.

2008-10-11T18:27:00.002+08:00

My 2nd update today but I can't help it.. this news is driving me crazy.
I never know reading news can be like riding roller coaster.
You can happy one minute and sad the next minute.
This is how this news affected me.

So what is so special about this news, having such huge effect over me??
For those who knows me well.. I guess you guys have guessed it.
Yeap yeap.. it's somethin to do with Shinhwa.
Junjin & Andy is coming to Singapore on the 4th of Nov!!!!!
It's such an exciting news for all Shinhwa fans, particularly for those who their favourite are Junjin & Andy.
I was excited when I read the news on Coolsmurf Domain.
It seems that they are organizing a K-Pop Concert as the SIngaporean Tourism Board is organizing a Korea Festival 2008.
My first thought of reading this news was: "I DEFINITELY want to GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
My mind was thinkin of beggin my mom to loan me money to buy ticket, beggin my uncle to let me stay at his place, and I don't even mind goin down SG alone since I know nobody having that craze for K-pop singer besids the Tiun twins but since DBSK & SJ are not in the performers' list, I doubt that they will be interested. :p

Everything seems to be dream come true for me until I read about this:

Ticketing arrangements for the K-Pop Concert are still being finalised. Tickets will not be sold through the usual outlets such as SISTIC. Instead, they will be given away over the next few weeks through our key sponsors, Far East Organisation, LG Electronics and Korean Air. You may wish to check with the above-mentioned sponsors on their plans to release tickets to the public.
Korea International Radio will also be holding live quizzes around mid-October to give away free tickets to listeners.

You have no idea how frustrated I feel about this.
Why couldn't they sell the tickets?? Why??
Why must they give out through their sponsors??
How am I goin to get these tickets seeing I'm not a Singaporean and I won't be visitng Singapore at anytime soon??
Just like sitting on the roller coaster, I was at the peak when I read about this news, and now I'm at the valley of the ride.
I guess I won't be going to the concert after all.
Sigh.. Andy., how I wish to see you. *sad look*
Just want to let out all my frustration..

P/S. I am emo now.

2008-10-11T13:13:00.002+08:00

Looking back at my uni life.. I realised I abandon many friends along the way.
Using the word "abandon" might be a bit harsh, maybe "neglect" would be a better term.
I'm never one tat good in keeping in touch.
I don't keep in touch with my primary school friends.
I don't keep in touch with my secondary school friends.
I don't keep in touch with my Alpha friends that went to Cyber.
I don't keep in touch with my friends that are already graduated.
I don't keep in touch with my friends who has not left Melaka.
Wow.. that's such a long list, showing you how ungrateful I am.. seeing that how much they have helped me to grow along the way.
Perhaps that's the problem with me, I'm very ungrateful, always taking people and things for granted.
No wonder..

P/S. I'm not emo. :p

Shinhwa Eric.. good luck..

2008-10-09T13:54:00.004+08:00

I feel like cryin now..
Eric is enlisting to military today!!
And what does that mean??
There won't be any Shinhwa activities until 2012.
Ouch.. this fact is really piercing my heart. T.T

I like this pic. He looks so pure & innocent.

Eric Mun.. the reason why Shinhwa remains together for 10 years.. and he promised Shinhwa will go on until the days that the fans rejected them, which obviously won't happen in another 10 to 20 years. Absolutely.

He has a very nice body.. which make girls drool.

Many people who knows and reads about Eric will agree that he's a great leader, despite of his peculiar way of thinking, which many of his fans called him ET and said he's from Mars. The reason that draws me to Shinhwa was watching at how smooth he was in the Korean variety show, "Love Letter". He really had his way talking to the female guests, racing the ladies' heartbeats up to 120 and more.

He's so so so handsome rite??

He brought all Shinhwa songs and Shinhwa Changjo (fanclub) out of SM Entertainment. It's hard to imagine the amount that all the Shinhwa members had contributed, and Eric definitely paying the most, since he's the richest in the group. He's also the English rapper of the group and a very good dancer too. Besides, he gave up his US citizenship and thus he 's serving his military service now. It is not easy since many Korean celebrity males dread to serve.

Let's just I'm missing them terribly already.
5 years of waiting.. sigh..
I'm havnig a dilemma feeling.
I wish all of them will enlist in the same time. rather than enlisting one by one.
At least I'll only have to wait for 2 years.
But then again.. I'm not ready to let Andy to go yet, he's just starting his solo career which he's doing very well now.
Oh well.. by the time Shinhwa resume their activities, I'll most probably earn enough to buy an air ticket to Korea and watch their concert.
So yeah.. Eric Oppa, hope you do well in military service and all Shinhwa fans will patiently awaits you to come back. Wish you all the best and good luck.

For now.. I should dwell on my BPP notes.. and missing Shinhwa. Tas.

startin with close friend?? nah.

2008-10-07T19:58:00.005+08:00

Do you ever thought of starting a r/s with ur close friend before??
I know ppl who are friends at first and turn out to be couples later.
But for me.. the thought is quite alien.

Recently, went out with friend A and B.
Friend B ask me why don't I start with friend A, in front of both us.
Rather than feeling awkward, I actually felt funny.
Well.. it's true that both of us are pretty close and single.
But no.. I don't wish to see such weird scenario happening. :p

In this entry, I'm going to jot down why I won't start with any of my close guy friends (referring as CGF from now, not only referring to friend B :p).

i) There's no spark between my CGF and me, that's why we can become close friend.

ii) I'm not compatible with any of them. There's a Chinese sayin goes, "It's easy to love but difficult to get along." Even there's any sparks, but based on personality wise, it's hard to start a r/s. Not looking down at myself, but I'm a good friend, not a good gf. Besides, I'm too demanding, let's not have another victim. :p

iii) I know them too well to not fall in love for them. I think this goes both ways. I know my CGF well enough to know what are their strengths, their weaknesses, and how they deal with their BGR. It wouldn't be fun to get with them knowing how they will treat you rite?? Love need to have some anticipation and surprises mar. Besides.. they are like my brothers, falling in love with them will be like falling in love with CW & CS. =.="

iv) A few of them are my friend's ex-es. I'm not the type to fall for my friend's ex-bf lar. Even if I do, I'll back out until my feelings gone. I'll choose friendship anytime over BGR. It's a big NO NO for me. I'm goin to stay firm with this principle. *nod nod* Besides, if I know my CGF have a thing for other girls, even if I do have feelings, it diminishes rite away.

v) Obviously I don't want to destroy frienships right?? They are my CGF. They are the ones that I go to when I'm sad, when I need someone to talk to. I want to have them for life. The best way to do it is continuing to be friends, until they are tired of me. *wink*

Thus.. the above 5 points are my reasons. Haha~
On the other hand, I realise my English is deteriorating, day by day. I couldn't speak fluently anymore and I keep making mistakes during conversations.
Ishh.. too much Mandarin influence is not good sometimes.
CP, you gotta start speaking, listening and thinking only in English.

Good luck for reamining papers. Tas.

i heart them. XD

2008-10-07T11:38:00.003+08:00

I have a thing for this guy now.. he's just so so so adorable!!
Kim Ki Bum from Super Junior is definitely one of the cutest Korean male star around.
I can't help but drooling over him.. he looks so yummy~
But too bad he's younger than me. Haha~
Not like I will get to see him anyway if we are same year. :p

Got his pics from his frienster.. not too sure whether it's really his friendster or not.
I think it's more of a fan-made pics.
This pic is so cute.. makes me feel like rubbing his eye for me.

Kinda like this guy too. He's Eunhyuk from SJ.
Should watch Every Idol show. He's so funny inside there.
Funny guys does attract me lar.. especially when they can dance and have the look.
After Shinhwa, SJ is another group that I like (influenced by Elysia).
Still.. it can't beat Shinhwa lar cos no group can touch me as much as they do yet. Haha.

Btw.. happy 21st birthday Merrilyn dear.. My CG leader who has been so good to the Fellowsheep members.
She's a kind-hearted, pretty, lovable & patient friend that I know.
She's also a very good dancer.
I know it's hard to lead a CG but she's doing a good job.
So gal, sorry for the troubles we caused and thanks for being so patient with us ya~
Hope all your birthday wishes come true and continue to rock in the love of Godl.
God bless ya n luv u lots. ^_^
Hope you willl be happy always.

Good luck for remaining papers. Tas.

short update

2008-10-05T19:03:00.002+08:00

A short update from me since I haven't updated for so long.
Went back for a wedding dinner during the weekend.
Joel, sorry for causing so much trouble for you yeah.. >.<

No pics of the bride nor the bridegroom, just some vain pics of me. :p

With my dad.
Had a new hair cut when I was at home.
My hair shorter now. Haha~

Took pic with dad and CS.
My dad so cute rite??
Didn't take pic with mom.. cos she sat beside dad, quite far from me.
Aiks..

For all my bro's supporters out there.. doubt there's any.
This is the latest pic of him!!
Can't believe he's my bro.. but then having him makes my boring life interesting lar.
Hehe~

That's all for me.
Tomorrow first paper for finals.
I'm so doomed. *bang**cp shot to death*

Good luck to all MMU students.
Tatas..

pics, pics, n pics.

2008-09-16T22:50:00.005+08:00

I dun feel awkward readin ur blog anymore.

I just read this year ACT's scipt.
It's goin to be fun. Haha~
On another note, today is a historical moment of CF, the first time we have it in campus. ^_^
We did bible quiz, but I end up camwhoring. With Joyce and Serene.
Nope, not feeling guilty. Lol~

Today post will be heavily loaded with pics.
Can't help camwhoring when you have a super pink camera.

Starting from today's event:

bible quiz.
it's a form of quiz like battleship game.
I'm in group 2, we got the highest, 600 marks. XD
Still dun get how they calculate the mark though. Wasn't payin much attention.
Dun like bible quizzes.. since i can't remember much from the bible. >.<

Random camwhoring session with the 2 pretty gals.
They are so fair, I'm so so so envy!!!!!!!

The pouting lips one.
They still look pretty n I'm so ugly.
Haha~

Do we look fierce or what??

Next event: This morning tutorial

I ended up drawing these during Jurisprudence tutorial.
Can guess which food is what??
Sorry for the lousy drawing.
My mom has to do my arts for me when I was young. Haha~
Just feel like sharin them cos I think they are cute despite the lousy drawing.

I ended up drawing this kangaroo in Evidence tutorial.
You wonder what I usually do in tutorial rite??
I usually end up drawing on the tables.
If you see any dirty table with drawing on contigency lab.. tat is usually my work.
I erase those ugly looking ones & preserve the nice looking ones.
Drew eraser, book, handphone, water bottle n many more b4.

Drew the kangaroo based on the this pic, from my notebook cover.
Btw.. KL drew the moon, and also modified my kangaroo a bit. She's much better in art than me. Haha~

Next event: Makan time with family

The karaoke session at lowyat.
2 cousins & 2 nephews.
The older ones are always bullyin the younger ones.

The not-so-entire Seet family.
I doubt you can recognize anyone.
The pic is too small and there's too many of us.

All the cousins & 2 nephews.

2 pretty gals and 1 plain jane.
My cousin, Ying Ying, we grew up together.
She has influenced me in a lot of way, one of it was collecting items from McDonald and Sailormoon stickers.
I collected Snoopy just bcos of her.
Mine is not complete but hers is, framed in wooden box too.

I think I have "bros fetish". Haha~
This pic does look good rite?? *wink wink*
I like it when 3 of us are together. XD

CW has everyone carryin him first.

Then he went and carry CS.
He carried me too but well.. I look fat in the pic, so not gonna post it. :p
Oh yeah.. he also said I'm heavier than CS. Ishh. >.<

I'm happy to see my relatives after not meeting them for so long.
Glad that my grandpa still healthy.
His face glows when we hug him. Hehe~

Next event: WI - Jonah

Can see who's in the small hut?

Kee Wing, Kenny & Sully!!!!
Not bad rite?? They can all squeeze inside it.

The big fish is the coolest thing of the event.
WI Jonah is a great event & I think it goes well with our CF theme this year.
2nd chance, God's mercy & grace.
Somethin great about to come. :)
Btw.. 26 of MMUCF Melaka went there, constitute to almost 1/10. Haha~

Last event: CG!!!

Last week CG we summarise the book of esther, the past 4 chapters we have learned.
The people attended: Billy, Merrilyn, Joash, Kelvin, Joshua, Deborah, Asaph and of course me~!!

I guess doing bible study is exhausted after all.
This is how Asaph look in the end.
But quite happy that he enjoy WI style of bible study. Hehe~

That's all from me.
This is what happen in the past few days event.
Kind of tired after bloggin for 1 whole hours.
Haha~
Good nite ppl~ ^_^

birthday(s)

2008-09-12T14:56:00.003+08:00

Today is a special date.
There are 3 ppl that I know celebratin their bdays today.
i) Prof. Myint Zan
ii) Sujatha
iii) Shih We
Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Prof. Myint Zan is my lecturer.
He taught me contract act & teaching me Jurisprudence now.
Let's just say he's the right person teaching Juris.
It's very interesting listeninin to his lecture.
Prof. Myint Zan is very knowledgeable, can't really count how many books he read before.
I doubt he will read my blog but still I want to wish him happy birthday. ^_^

Next is sujj, she's also celebratin her bday today. Hehe~
Shall not reveal her age.
After all, a girl's age is her secret rite??
She's a gamer, not too sure what type of games she play, but card games are definitely included.
A warm Malaccan, very nice to talk to. Haha~
My first time clubbing was with her.. n also other ppl as well on her bday.
It was my first & best clubbin lar. :p
Sujj, hope you have a great bday and all ur bday wishes come true ya. ;)

Last one is the mommy of all CF-ers, Shih Wen!!!
Shih Wen is the one wearing green in the middle, unique, tall and thin.
She's a very very caring person.
It's funny to see how she make Wayne eats lar. Haha~
Despite being the youngest one among the 5 of us, she seem to be the most mature one lar.
She's also very responsible.
Thanks to her, we're able to finish the defendant part for mock trial.
Your rocks, group leader for defendant. XD
Hope all ur bday wishes come true ya. ^_^

p/s. Goin for WI tomorrow.
Can't wait for it. ^_^

my tot tonite.

2008-09-08T22:04:00.002+08:00

I ditch the MULS AGM and went for the meeting in CF instead.
I had a valid reason - my close friends are either the committees or they didn't go.
You don't expect me to sit alone looking so left out rite??
At least I know I won't be if I go CF, got Louis, Lucius, Wayne, Zi Jian and many more. XD

The meeting for CF tonite is to talk about the AGM on Wednesday.
Jia Tsing gave a brief introduction on the constitution and answered any question that anyone had in mind.
Being a part of MMUCS is no more of an issue, as we are already a registered club in campus.
Let's just say it's a joyous occasion which I'm pretty sure many of our pioneer seniors had dreamed of.
I am happy that we are part of campus but the tot of giving up YAC, even if it's still pending, is quite saddenning.

Many has voiced their opinions.
Some viewed it as a call from God, saying that we should join campus fully.
Some viewed it in more practical sense, YAC should remain as a resource centre.
If I'm not mistaken, I think MMUCF is the only CF which has a place of its own, outside the campus.
In a way, YAC has become comfort zones of many, knowing that we have absolute freedom to do anything that we want, and there is a meeting place for us everyweek. We can use it for other purposes, such as playing ping pong. Lol~
Not forgetting the full band worship too. We have the guitar, the drum set, the piano. This priviledge will lose if we move into campus and giving up YAC.

But think of it.. do we need a full band worship??
Do we need a place of our own?
Do we need a resource centre?
Does YAC remains a need or a want for us?
God granted us YAC because CF is not official in campus, we could not book a room to hold our meeting.
For 10 years, seniors & churches have been supporting the CF financially, to pay for the RM900 rent every month.
Sometimes it make me wonder how long will these people keep on supporting us financially.
I even ask myself the same question.. would I be willing to support CF financially as well when I start working?
Then I ask myself again.. are we taking these people for granted??
Have we utilise the place fully and bring more people to know the Christ??
If I were to answer, on my own behalf, I'll give an affirmative answer.
And belive me.. I'm ashamed of myself for not bringing a single soul to Chris.. not even my own family.

Well.. I'm not sure what I want to write in this post already.
It makes me feel guilty as I pen down my tots.
Hate it when things get serious. >.<
Hmm.. I'm not one to deal with serious situations.
But oh well.. let's just follow what Esther Lee said, pray to God continually until a right answer surfaces.
So whether CF will moved into campus fully, stayed back in YAC, or take a step further like Jansen said, it'll depend on the almighty Father up there.
But if one day, I'm certain.. since God has opens a door for us, so just use this opportunity to do what we can. After all, CF is CF not because of where we are but who we are.
As long as there is faith and unity, God will guide us to face all the consequences that coming along.
Imagine it as playing RPG game which God is the fairy like creature which helps us to gain experience, levelling up ourselves and slay the dragon at the end. Haha~

K lar.. such a super duper long post.
Dun think anyone will be reading it. :p
Good nite. :)

i know.

2008-09-07T14:27:00.004+08:00

I know it better than anyone else.
I know that this relationship will not work.
No matter how much I like you, my feelings will never return.

You're too far away from me.
You're too different from me.
I dun need another person to tell me that.

I know there are many girls around you.
I know you're never have your eyes on me.
After all, I'm too plain & simple, not worth to look

I long to be close to you in my dream.
I long to see you smiling and joking with me.
But there's always someone by your side, catching your attention.

I wish I could see you more often.
I wish I could have a reason to talk to you.
I wish to do lots of things with you but I know none of them will come true.

Maybe one day I will wake up from my dream and laugh at how silly I am.
But before that day comes, I just want to like you and you alone.
So, Andy-shhi, no matter how people laugh at me now.. I will continue to love you!!

happy birthday to k lyn ^_^

2008-09-04T16:31:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today is K lyn's bday. ^_^
I know her since Alpha, she's my Alpha group mate.
Known her as anime queen, she's the one who intro me readin manga online.
Yeap yeap, a very important friend in my Uni life.

Many known her as "anime queen" and no doubt she is.
She lent me Saiunkoku Monogatari season 1 and 2.
I finish watchin both seasons within 2 days.
So yeah, I recommend you to watch it strongly.
So many handsome guys inside lar. Haha~

Besides anime queen, ppl also say she's like Haruhi Fujioka from Ouran High School Host Club.
She's pretty calm all the time.
Haha~
K lyn's pretty too, my friend mar. :p

The other identity of her is.. Shin Dee's baby sitter!!!!!!!
Oh no.. I blurt out the deadliest secret.. =.="
Well, actually they had been roommates for 3 years I think.
So K lyn took very good care of Shin Dee.
Roommates mar, definitely have to take care lar.
I do believe they have a special bond which will keep their friendships forever. :)

I do hope everythin goes well in her industry training.
Hope all her bday wishes come true too.
May God bless her on her walk with Him and she will always remain as an obedient child of His.
And I hope K lyn will always be happy and healthy,
Miss ya gal. :)
Lastly, Happy Birthday again!!!!!!!

how i feel these 2 days??

2008-09-03T21:14:00.004+08:00

it's almost a week since i last updated.
lots of sleep+play+eat = accumulated works that will kill me flat
sometimes i wish i didnt hv the Merdeka holiday but then again.. if i dun hv it, i sure complain the government n the uni.
i'm so so so hard to satisfy rite?? ><>

my 2 bros.
they look so gay rite??
told them i'll upload this pic.
i love my bro lots, sorry for them too, havin such a super duper terrible sis like me. :(
i'm a failure in everythin i do. aiks~

i love this pic, even though it's blur. haha~
we look so cute rite?? XD
if only this pic is clearer, i sure wash it out n frame it up.

last pic of the day.
this is the best of all.
everyone poutin lips except for qin yee. :p
CS said he cant' believe he acted cute.. cos he normally doesn't n all bcos we forced him to.
haha~ now u know the power of siblings combined??

conclusion: we are all vainpots. XD how can u not love my bros after seein these pics rite??

okay lar.. now start the whining part.
*caution**beware*
leave now if u're unprepared, dun say i didn't warn u ya.

well.. once again i realise how immature i am.
oh well.. since when i'm ever mature??
everytime i go back home, my immaturity grows rather than diminish.
so lol.. i can be such an idiot at times.
hate the way i am but am i ready to change? nope.
a super duper negative thinkin cp. someone pls slap her?? *slaps cp's face*
*ouch**face bengkak* thanks for the tight slap. :p

and yeah.. kinda think my bro hates me.
he kept tapau-in food tat i dun like. *roll eyes*
yesterday malacca type of "lau su fen" which i only had few bites
today much better, but got cauliflower.. i dun eat one *pout lips*
but hmm..since i eat most of it, does this mean he hates me lesser today?? *think hard*
oh well.. after wat i did, i would hate myself too.
at least he's still willing to tapau for me, he's a very good bro rite??
gotta be grateful with what i hv.
thanks ya bro.

k lar.. gotta head back to work d.
oh yeah.. for those of u who see kean guan n kelvin lee often, ask them to come cg ya??
been MIA for a few weeks d.
i know got asst and midterms, but at least come for cg lar, even tim came last week. :p

k lar.. tas.
shall continue emo-in. haha~

hate you..

2008-08-27T22:52:00.003+08:00

i never tot i'll have so much hatred for youtube before.. until now.
they hv suspended another subscription of mine.
my subbed source for WGM.
not only tat.. and all the other shinhwa clips.. the memorble and funny one.
how can they do tat??
how??
they have suspended coolsmurf (eng subbed), and now they suspended s12yovup (chinese subbed) & sophiajs (shinhwa first debut clips) , wonder who they'll suspend next.
wish i can vent my anger out.
stupid youtube. :(

i hv fun. :)

2008-08-26T03:16:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time.
Can't remember how long it was.
Remember the days I used to go out at 12am, thinkin tat the nite is so young, and it's still early for me to go out.
Remember the days I came back home around 3, 4am thinkin tat why did I come back home so early?
Going out yam cha with frens are basic daily routines, diff nite, diff frens.
Sometimes I wonder where these days are?
Sometimes I wonder where are the frens I used to hang out with.
Nowadays, I don't even walk out of the house after coming back for dinner. Lol~

Thanks for tonite (or is it morning?).
Thanks for the yam cha session.
Thanks for the one to one talk, even if it's "corrupted" one, at least I have a lot of fun.
Thanks for remembering me when u need someone to go supper with.
Haha~

p/s. went to visit Wayne yesterday n he was discharged yesterday itself. ><
but at least he recover now. Btw.. so tempted to steal the "moo" borstal. :p

hope Wayne's okay

2008-08-24T21:13:00.003+08:00

i forgot how to be happy..
i forgot how to be true..
i forgot how to care for ppl..
and i forgot how to love..

hope Wayne is alrite.
hopefully can visit him tomorrow.
Lord, I pray that Wayne has quick recovery so that he could pass up his asst in time.
Amen.

我小时候的偶像 - 林志颖

2008-08-19T18:11:00.003+08:00

这一篇就想用华语来写
所以就请你们多多包容吧。：）

Credit: all pics from baidu jimmy thread.

他是我小时候的偶像
从第一眼看到就像嫁给他的人
一个当年红透半边天的人
18岁就在红堪体育馆开演唱会
他告诉我什么是花美男
F4不是始祖，他才是
他叫我应在何时把“漂亮”用在男生身上
浓郁的眉毛
明亮的眼睛
柔顺的头发
直挺的鼻子
薄薄的双唇
许多女生都比不上他
他实在太可爱了
就这样他让我变成一个外貌协会的人 XD

许多男生都嫌他粉
但我偏偏就钟情他那张脸
喜欢他的六四发型，俗称麦当劳头
当年许多男生争相模仿，但我觉得还是只有他适合
喜欢看他演的戏，虽然演技不太精湛，但有他那张脸，我看得心满意足
最喜欢就是他的“祖孙情”，让我哭得哗啦啦。
重听他的歌，其实他的歌声不错，起码我不会皱眉头

当年一出道就超红的，连泰国公主都要嫁给他
他的魅力绝对不是盖的
他的微笑纯真、无邪，叫人看了就有好感、只想好好呵护他，不让他又半点委屈
当年的他无人不晓，贴纸海报周围都是
到处都播放着他的歌曲 “17岁的雨季”、“今年夏天”、“野菊花”等等
但本人爱的还是他后来的作品： “快乐至上” 和 “稻草人”

有人说他是典型的“时势造英雄”
那时的娱乐圈正需要像他这样健康、可爱、阳光造型的男孩
他犹如一股清新怡然的风，叫你看了就如沐春风，想把他捧在手心上疼
如果他有受委屈，相信许多歌迷都会为了他“大开杀戒”吧（笑）
一个在外貌上能震撼郭富城的歌手，他如果不是红那是什么？

可是有时候不经令人感慨
如果他当年没这么红
而是慢慢越变越红，会不会更幸福呢？
自从退兵役后，他不像当初大红
如今的他，已经35了，人气自然不如从前
但他已是一种传奇，事业跨越了各种领域
从歌手到赛车手，再从开科技公司到自己的餐厅
谁敢说他不行？
他证明了自己无数次。
还有这不得不说，他在23岁时就有自己的法拉利车了，羡慕吧？XD

若要说变，我可不想讨论他的样子
样子是上帝给予的，不是说变就变的
我要说的是他的笑容
非常喜欢他刚出道时的笑容，非常灿烂、非常快乐、眼里总带着调皮、淘气的神采
他去了当兵，回来时人已变成熟，同样的笑容，但味道就是不一样了
有时想想他不再这么红是不是因为如此?
很不喜欢人家所说的审美疲劳观
他的帅气、他爽朗的笑容不论到何时依然能迷倒一大票女生
“放羊的星星”不是一个最好的证明吗？

如今的他是帅气的赛车手，又是演员，又是歌手，拥有多重身份
但我只希望他能实现所有的梦想
过着平平安安、快快乐乐的生活，不再因赛车而受伤
平且找个贤妻良母、生出小小的“林志颖”
那我就觉得此生喜欢这个偶像实在太好了。

谢谢你曾经出现在我的生命中
谢谢你成为我最初、也最敬佩的偶像
谢谢你度过低潮期依然用最乐观的态度面对
谢谢你依然还在演艺圈，让我可再次喜欢上你
最后还是一句，谢谢你。^_^

最后。。我只想要用这首歌来作结尾
黄安的 “样样红”：

青春少年是样样红
你是主人翁
要雨得雨要风得风
鱼跃龙门就不同
可是太匆匆
流金岁月人去楼空
人生渺渺在其中
荣华富贵呀飞呀飞
世上的人呀追呀追
何时放下歇一歇
能不能愿这吉祥夜吉祥
愿用家财万贯
买个太阳不下山

random updates

2008-08-19T01:10:00.003+08:00

"Don't look down on yourself because of your age.
Don't look down on yourself because of your ability.
Don't look down on yourself because of your appearance.
God does not want you to be little yourself."

These words of Pastor Ronnie (hope I get it right) hammered heavily into my heart.
All 3 of them, especially the 2nd one.
Ability.. I don't have any actually.
I can't sing, I can't dance, I can't play, I can't even pray properly.
I can't serve in much areas.
In church, I only serve in media, which doesn't require much skills and I make mistakes every single time I'm in duty.
So what ability do I have?
Can't think of any except typing.
But let's not be little myself. I'm pretty sure God will think of something that only I can do.
Right right right??

K lar.. sorry for the crappy post.
Too tired I guess.
Nites nites.
Btw.. V2 Camp is kinda fun. haha~

I had fun!!!

2008-08-14T23:55:00.002+08:00

Today I had a lot fun.
It makes me love my CG more n more.
Fellowsheep rocks (name given by Joash)!!
Btw.. Ana-chan's CG rocks too!!

My new try today: 麻辣香肠 (spicy sausage) and siham at longkang.
The sausage is super duper hot & the worst part is.. I can't take super spicy food.
Let's just say it worth trying once. Haha~
Cos I don't think I would ever try again.
Should really thank Asaph for pushing me into trying it.
Oh yeah.. had fun racing to Julian's car too.
Feel young again. *wink*

Was sitting between Asaph and Karen at longkang.
Let's just say I respect both of them, for daring to try out the siput babi.
The thing looks so eerie to me.. Can't figure out what's the red colour thingy is.
Later.. Joash kacau me sayin that I should try out.. if not I'll die regretting without tastin it. Yeah rite. :p
So finally I can proudly tell ppl that I, CP had try the food at longkang and also the spicy sausage.
I can finally graduate with honour. Haha~

The best part of today: Joash's bday bash!!
Okay.. I know his birthday is not today.
In fact today is Wayne's birthday.
Happy Birthday, Wayne!! You're well-loved by many.
"For you're a jolly good fellow, for you're a jolly good fellow
For you're a jolly good fellow (pause), and happy birthday to you."
Alright.. back to Joash.
It doesn't mean we can't have pre-celebration rite??

We went to MBMB fountain.
The guys are cute and funny.
They were all squeezin in one bench, trying to hide the birthday cake, which is very very cute of them.
Still wonder whether Joash notice. *think hardly*
We did bully Joash in the end lar.. in a very nice way.
Only forced him to take out candles using his mouth kay??
It's so tempting to throw him inside the pool.
But oh well.. pity Joel which goin to send him back home later.

Fellowsheep CG: Merrilyn (group leader), Joash, Julian, Joshua, Jason, Kean Guan, Kelvin, Albert, Yeong, Asaph, Deborah and me.
Ana-chan's CG: Ana-chan, Soly, Justyne, Joel, Grace, Hui Lee and Karen.
And also our Mr. President, Jia Tsing. XD
Hopefully I didn't leave anyone out lar. Thanks for all the fun that I had. *super satisfied*

p/s. I think my phone gone haywire d due to me dropping it 2 times today. It's not functioning anymore. :(
Mommy.. Can I have a new phone now?? *pleading eyes*

Happy Anniversary to me. Hehe~

2008-08-13T00:02:00.002+08:00

Credit: http://www.greattreasures.co.uk/store/store/toc.html

CP, Happy 1 year Anniversary.
You know what this date means to you.
Many things had happened since then, but you know you're slightly more matured compare then.
You grow to love yourself more too & of course, you think you deserve better, in every way. *ppl reading rolling eye*

So what is happening in your life now?
Life is good to you. You have friends to hang out with. You have a Korean group that you can be obsessed with. And you have juniors who bully you but you still love them nonetheless. *wink*

So CP, how do you feel now?
You feel nothing actually. Life is pretty calm for you rite now, besides busy with mid-term & asst, and of course reading updates about Shinhwa. But nothing really affects your emotion, after all one year has pass, you know you have moved on.

So, CP, what have you learned for the past 1 year?
You learn to be independent, you learn that things are not meant to be forever, you know that there are friends who care and you also learn that rumours spread easily. But most importantly, you know what God wants for you & you know who is your ideal partner (Andy or course!! XD).

Then girl, what is your wish for future?
To learn Korean, to be smarter, to increase my CPGA, to read my bible, to treat my friends and family better, to get various kinds of Shinhwa products & most importantly, to love God more.

Once again, Happy Anniversary CP!!!!!! ^_^

can't see him d?

2008-08-11T07:15:00.002+08:00

Saw the result yesterday.
He competed in heat 4 of Men's 200m freestyle.
But sadly to say, he didn't qualify for the next round.
Can't watch him swim d. Ishh ishh..
Oh well.. at least the Opening Ceremony is more fun to watch having him there. :)
Got to know another cute swimmer, will always remember his name from now on. Hehe~
Let's hope in another 4 years time, he will have better performance in the next Olympic.
Compare to many, still think he's good nonetheless. :)

Midterm today. Dies. :p
Have a good day ppl.

p/s. Happy Birthday to Andrew & Jerome!!! Hope all your birthday wishes come true & God bless. :)

2008 Beijing Olympic.. not really??

2008-08-09T17:54:00.005+08:00

He's so so so cute!!!!!!!!
Alrite, I have been saying I dun like younger guys but now I can't help it.. I like him!!!!!!!
Haha~

I was at home watching the 2008 Beijing Olympic opening ceremony.
This is my first time watching Olympic opening ceremony.
The whole thing was awesome, indescribable.
Even though I never watch the previous ones before, but I believe this is one of the best Olympic opening ceremony ever. (hopefully I'm correct la :p)

I'm pretty impress with 2 programmes from the whole event.
Not to say the others do not impress me, but these two just blow my mind off.
The first one was 60 seconds countdown.
I wish I can show you the pics.. but I can't find any online. Aiks~
If you watch it, you know what I mean.
Can't believe it's manual, absolutely respect the performers, they really worked hard for it.

Credit: somewhere in cyber?
This is another one that made people go "wow".
Manual as well, absolutely stunning.
They form the word "和", meaning peace.
I'm so glad I watched it.
Yeah~

After all these fabulous performance, all the athletes from various nations come in.
None of my family is interested. =.="
I was the only watchin it.
And guess who I saw??
Lots of cute guys of course!! *wink*

The cutest among all:

Credit: CCTV?
The flag-bearer from Luxembourg, Raphael Stacchiotti!!!!!!!
He looks so cute rite??
Look at his eyes.
Look at his smiles. *melt*
My eyes just shine when I saw him.
So I searched about him online.
Apparently lots of girls found him hot too.
One even commented him as A-grade Hottie, which I totally agree. *grin*
Even my own mom agreed that he's hot.
Then guess what I found??
He's only 16 this year!!!
I straight away GG.. he's younger than my youngest bro, CS.
I don't want to be called a pedophile.
Felt so old suddenly.

Credit: Roland Miny Press Photo
He's the one on the left.
Such nice figure rite?? *drool*
He was born in 9-3-1992, & he's joining 200m freestyle men swimming (hope I'm right) in this Olympic.
I can't watch his match.. it's scheduled tomorrow nite. *sad eyes*
Hopefully a cute guy like him will win a medal for his country.
Conclusion for the day: I like cute guys~ *dancing across the room*
K.. CP, stop pedo-ing and go back to your study.
Tatas, ppl~

update: for those who are interested in him, click here or here.
There are more pics of him. :)
Apparently he's the most discussed Olympic athletes now.
Seems like all the girls searching for his news only. *wink*

read it if u're bored.

2008-08-07T20:53:00.004+08:00

I want this.. I want this badly!! *pouting lips*
This is a limited edition watch, Swatch only producing 3000 & they are selling it in Japan.
Sigh.. I know I'm not going to get it but still.. I can still blog about it rite??

I want a lot of things.
I want all Shinwha CDs.
I want all Shinhwa posters.
I want all Shinhwa products.
I want to watch all shows with Shinhwa in.
I want to know how to read, write, speak & listen in Korean language.
And you know what I want the most??
I want to meet them in person & tell Andy how much I like him.

Well.. you're rite.. I'm obsessed with Shinhwa, very much but you can't blame me.
It's so hard to get any of their items in Malaysia.
Not much people know them, not much shops selling their stuffs.
I felt so deprived.
I went to Sungei Wang once.. the one place which I thought I'll have my hand on any Shinhwa items, whether is a CD, doll, poster, sticker, fan, document holder.. or anythin, just as long as they are on it.
But no.. I can't get ANY.
I spent a few hours walking around, searching for all shops that were possible selling, be it a comic shop or music shop, but there is no sigh of them.. all I saw was DBSK.
My bro told me that they're old, that's why they aren't popular.
He was right, I can't deny it.
The truth hurts.. but it made me love them even more, appreciating every single thing of theirs that I had.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm not deprived, would I cherish them as much?
It's just like my walk with Christ.
I'm not deprive of him, so I do not appreciate him as much.
I joined CF, I had a lot of Christian friends.
Even though my family aren't Christians, they never stopped me from going to church.
I have the freedom to attend any church, my parents even send me there.
I'm allowed to join Christian camps, Christian conference.
There are a lot of Christian CDs, Christian books around.
But do I ever seek them or buying them?
I know that Jesus will never leave me, no matter how sinful I am.
I know He will never forsake me despite of how much I hurt him.
But what I did to repay him?
I do nothing.

I listen to Shinhwa's songs everyday but I can't even spend 15 mins a day to spend with him.
I watch Shinhwa's youtube clips everyday but I can't spend 15 mins reading my bible.
I'm willing to spend more than I can afford to buy SHinhwa's stuffs but I can't give God just as much.
I tell people how much I like about Shinhwa but I never tell people how much God loves them.
So it makes me figure..
What if one day I'm really deprived of Christ's love, what if one day Jesus was so disappointed with me and decided to let me go, what if one day all my Christian's friends decided to leave me alone?
How will I be and what will become of me??
Will I wake up only on that day and realise how important God is to me?
Will I cried until I have no more tears and there is still no forgiveness for me?
Will I be resentful learning there's no turning back and there's no way ahead for me as well?

Erm.. turning into quite an heavy post, didn't mean to develop it that way but I'm glad I blurt them out. :p
Looks like I ought to do something about myself.. hmm..
Alrite, thanks for reading & hope you enjoy the remaining of your holiday. :)
Tas.

korean songs. :D

2008-07-30T10:27:00.003+08:00

Been listening to Korean songs a lot.
Every single day. Every time I on my laptop.
You can guess it, it's mainly songs about Shinhwa.
But I'm slowly listening to the other Korean artists too.
Sometimes it amuses me that I listen even though I dun understand. Lol~

I realised I prefer listening to group rather than solo singer.
And I'm very picky on the singer as well.
He/She must be someone I know, someone I'm interested in.
That's the reason why my song lists are mainly Shinhwa.
Oh yeah.. I'm liking Crown J slowly too.
He's a rapper, a sweet rapper. :D
I like how he is in "We Got Married."
The cutest & most interesting couple in the show so far. :)

This is how he looks lar.
He grew up in US & graduated in UCLA.
He kept saying "A" in the show. =.="
But still cute nonetheless.
Try listening to his song "Too much", which he sang it with Seo In Young, his wife in the show.
Anyway, my heart remains faithful towards my Andy Oppa who can cook, dance, sing, and of course act cute. Hehe~

K lar.. chao first.
I'm so so so not ready for my paper later.
Sigh~
Tas.
Have a good day. :)

i'm fat. aiks~

2008-07-27T17:11:00.003+08:00

I'm fat. My life is over. I might as well die.
.
..
...
....
.....
Just kidding.
I'm serious about the first sentence though.
I have seriously gain weight from sitting too much, indulging too much of you tube.
"We Got Married" is really really fun to watch.
If you have nothing to do, consider watching it.
It's 2 celebrities being paired up and have a make-believe marriage life.
I love it totally.
Got to see my darling Andy cooking, doing house chores, such an ideal husband. ^_^
I had only 2 complains.
i) He's so thin nowadays, he should gain a bit more weight.
ii) His hairstyle doesn't suit him, I really hate it. :(

It looks something like this.
My Andy Oppa doesn't look cute in this hairstyle. *sob sob*

Back to me gaining fat part.
I was staring myself in the mirror, looking at the parts where girls store fats easily, i.e the tummy, the thighs and of course the butts.
You have no idea what an ugly sight is..
Of course I can't take picture & show you.
After all, I have my image to keep. *wink*

Must eat less, must sit less, must sleep less.
Exercise more, study more, and do house chores more.
That way.. maybe my fats will disappear??
Haha~

K lar.. before goin off.
Another 2 pic of my honey, Andy Oppa.

This pic is him sleeping peacefully.
Doesn't he look like an angel??
Sigh.. I wanna sleep next to him. *dreamy look*

Credit: MyShinhwa
This was taken during Shinhwa's first album, "Resolver".
It was 10 years ago.
I find it so super duper cute, feel like pinching & hugging him so badly.
How can a guy be this cute??!!!!!! *boucing around with happiness*

Bye bye, good luck for midterms. :)

senseless post

2008-07-23T18:00:00.003+08:00

I'm tired, very tired.
I dunno y.

I got lots of things to do but I hv no desire to do them.
I dunno y.

I know takin medicine will make me feel better but I dun wan to.
I dunno y.

All I know is that I want to cuddle on my bed & indulged with my manga, story books & Shinhwa.
I'm an idot.. I know.

Putting this pic for fun.
I like how both of us look in this pic.
And I'm in love with the length of my hair now. *happy*
Taken at Carrefour.
We had sushi, yummy salmon sushi. Lovely~
Let's go again kay?? *smiling widely*
I just love eating. *wink*

the dark knight

2008-07-22T01:01:00.005+08:00

it's fun to watch
it makes u feel excitin
the actors are great
batman is gorgeous (he got the body & the looks!!)
joker is scary yet cunning
the gadgets are awesome
besides the companies are awesome (u guys know who u are :p)
so i give 2 thumbs up for this movie. ^_^
faster go n watch!!!!! :p

the only complain: batman is married... :(
how am i goin to find another guy as hot as Christian Bale??

*droolin over hm now*
oh well.. when all else fails.. there's still Andy to fall for.
Andy-shhi, dun get a gf so soon kay??
or make me ur gf, tat will be perfectly fine too. XD
Saranghe-yo! *grin widely*

credit: ND entertainment
he's so so so super duper cute rite??
k lar.. time to sleep d. tas. ^_^

happy birthday to darlnig Shin Dee~!!

2008-07-15T15:18:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!
July is a month with lots of bday boys & girls.
So I'm goin to write another bday post again.
Haha~
Looks like I'm really lack of things to write.
Ideas!! Faster come quickly to me!!!!!!!! :p

To this special girl, who self-proclaimed she's my niece.
She called me auntie in the beginnin but stop callin me tat after knowing the real me.
She's one that attract money easily.
Also one that can build r/s with real aunties & uncles easily.
She teman me to shop for my clothes & also the only friend that play board game with me.
She was always there to listen & comfort me when I'm down.
Also another Japanese & Anime freak. (where are the Korean freak??)
It will be an endless list to describe her but by now, she should know who she is d rite??

She's the girl in the pic below:

She's in the middle & her name is Shin Dee!!!!!!!
Hope u'll always be happy & adorable.
Missin ya, hopin to cya soon. XD
*muakz**hugzz*

happy 21st bday, gal~!!

2008-07-08T00:33:00.003+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday, Debbie!!!

How should I describe her??
She's a unique girl who dances well, speaks well, & studies well.
She doesn't mind expressing herself & a sporting person.
She's mature as well, tat's why she can take good care of others & carry herself well.
Fun to be around with & able to survive at wherever she is.
She does yoga & a Paddlepopper.
Well-loved by many for her good nature.
An obedient child of God & someone you can truly rely on.
Yeap yeap.. hope you have a memorable birthday, gal~!!
Hope all ur bday wishes come true. ^_^

distant of our heart~

2008-07-06T17:20:00.002+08:00

Once there's this wise lecturer asked his students a question: "Why do people use shout when they are angry?"

All the students thought hard about it.
One of the students answered: "It's because we lost our "calmness", that's why we shout."

The lecturer then asked, "The person is just right next to you, it's not necessary to shout, can't you just speak softly? Why must you shout?"

The students then came up with various explanations but none of the answers satisfied the lecturer.

At last, the lecturer explained, "When A & B are angry, the distance of their hearts are far, in order to cover the distance, A must shout so that B can hear him.

However when A starts shouting, it makes B angrier. When B is angrier, the distant of the two hearts become further. When the distant is further, it is necessary to shout even louder..."

The lecturer then continued further, "How is the situation when 2 ppl are in love? It is the opposite of A & B. They speak softly rather than shouting. Why?

Because their hearts are close to each other. There is no distance between the two hearts. So 2 ppl who are in love tend to whisper to each other. As their love grows deeper, words become unnecessary for them.

Just by staring, they know how each other feel. At times like that, it is a zero distance between them..." Finally, the lecturer made a conclusion.

"When two ppl start arguing, don't let the distant of hearts increases, try not to say stuffs that might increase the distant more. Just take a few days off, when the distant is shorter, then you can talk nicely again!!"

Hope you enjoyed this story.
Got it from a forwarded mail.
Thought of sharing it with you guys. :)
It's quite true for me.
Let's hope there's peace & love everywhere from now on.
I'm such a dreamer. Haha~
Tas.

sippy.. still bubbly??

2008-07-05T19:27:00.004+08:00

I hv lotsa pics in my camera.
Haven't uplaoded them on my lappie yet.
I'm just plain lazy to do it.
Those are pics tat I took from diff occasions, including IF camp, Mlk Tour, outings with CG, outings with friends & various family occasions.
I always wonder what happened if I lost my camera or the internal memory is spoilt.
Hopefully nothing happens until I do so.
Btw.. after owning a camera, I realise I'm not a camera person.
I'll bring the camera around but do not hv the desire to take any pic.
However, not plannin to sell my awesomely pinky babe anytime soon. Haha~

If you use the word "bubbly" to describe someone, according to Thefreedictionary.com is a person who is lively, animted & excited.
Yourdictionary.com also gives similar meaning, it means lively and high-spirited & vivacious.
It makes me wonder now whehter the word "bubbly" still fits me.
Comparing with me during my Alpha & Beta years, I was quite a bubbly person.
I can't sit still, get excited easily, always trying to annoy ppl around me.
Right now, in my epsilon year, am I still the way before??
Just recently, a friend commented me that I look a bit fake now.
I realised what she said was true. I hide a bit more of my emotion nowadays unless I'm with ppl that I'm truely close with, those that I'm comfy with, those that know my true nature.
I dunno lar.. let's just hope it's me becoming more mature, getting past the phrase of being bubbly. :p
I'm sucks in putting my tots & feelin in words, time to read more.
Nites. :)

Sorry..

2008-06-29T21:02:00.002+08:00

I realise I haven't grown much, I haven't grow mature yet.
I still dunno how to deal with things & I damage things so easily.
Hate myself for tat.
I'm sorry..
I'm sorry for not apologizing sooner.
I'm sorry for not acting sooner after damaging it.
I'm just so sorry.
Pls do let me know if there's something I can do..
Or maybe I should just bang my head on the wall (with the pillow attaching to it lar).
Ishh.. I'm so so so useless.

2nd post for today. :p

2008-06-25T15:43:00.002+08:00

I feel light, burden being lifted kind of light.
But before I felt light, I was full of anger.
It's irony, it's funny when I think about it.
It's great having friends to talk to.
At least after spilling all my angers, all my tots on them, I'm relieved, pity those who had to listen. Haha~!!

When I stop crying, does that mean I have grown up??
When I stop feeling sad, does that mean things doesn't matter anymore??
I have dreams that I want to catch, things that I want to do.
Most importantly, I dun wan to remain where I am anymore.
It's time for me to march on, time for me to focus on other stuffs, time for me to make my dream come true.

All the nice food in Mlk, here I come!!!!!!!
All the nice manga that I have not read, here I come!!!!!!!!!
All the remaining books in bible I haven't read, here I come!!!!!!!!!
All the remaining Shinhwa posters & albums I haven't collected, here I come!!!!!!!!
I have so much things to do, looks like I'll be busy for a long long long long long while.
Haha~

Tas. I'm off to hikin Bunga Raya Hill again, 43kg weight here I come!!!!!!!!! :p

Short, random updates. :P

2008-06-25T10:01:00.003+08:00

I didn't cry despite what I heard last nite. I think I'm getting mature. I think I realise it's not worth crying.
There are lots of things & lots of ppl who deserve my tears, my happiness, my attention more than certain things & it's so silly of me to not appreciate things around.
I believe one day all these thoughts, emotions, & experiences will turn me into a great women. It definitely will. *wink*

Skipped my morning tutorial.
I didn't intend to skip it but well I skipped in the end.
There are a few reasons why I skipped tutorial:
1. I felt tired.
2. Wanted to print my notes, the printer doesn't want to co-operate.
3. Besides, I hate the tutors that tutoring this subject. If I go there empty-handed, I'll be so dead.
Feelin frus rite now but I'll definitely go to my lecture later.
Why can't they have the same person lecturing & tutoring?
Sigh..

It's fun cf yesterday.
Thanks to Elaine, I now know how old I am now. Ishh.. :p
Got to know the Alphas. Quite a number of them, but I only know a few.
Laser Bean Ray, Alex without the A, Malini & Deborah.
Hope to know more of them during CG or Mlk tour.
But some of them does look mature lar.. where are the cute cute Alphas waiting for me to bully?? *sulky face*

That's all from me.
Will update more when there's any interesting stuff happening.
May God bless ur day. ^_^

results.. oh well.

2008-06-15T01:07:00.002+08:00

Results out & I didn't do badly as I have thought.
I thought my CGPA is going down to drain, seeing the way I answer my paper.

The first day of exam my pen is not working & I dun hv a watch.
My bro borrowed me his alarm clock & I didn't realise the battery felt off.
Alrites.. it's my bad, my carelessness for not preparing the things that I need beforehand & always waiting for last minute.
Btw.. thanks Khan Ling for borrowing me her pen. She's a sweety :)

For each paper that I did, I was zoning for at least the 1st hour & for some even more.
I was tired & couldn't concentrate. During the next 2 hours, I was rushing like mad, hoping I can write everything down, which was of course quite the contrary.
The 2nd lesson I learn was not to study last minute, & always have enough sleep before sitting for paper.
No more zoning during exam again, or at least zone only for 1/2 hour.

The worst experience that I had in this final is during Land Law.
I wish I can curse with the "f" word but I'm just too polite to write it out, so yeah, you understand can already.
It's so scary to have 3 papers in a row. I wasted not only 1/2 hours but also whatever I had wrote.
I requested for a 2nd book & rewrote it.
This paper is screwed, I considered myself lucky if I dun need to sit for supplementary.
I felt like crying right after the paper.
It's not that the questions were too tough, but my mind was blank & empty.
I felt so disappointed with myself.

3 papers in a row is one of the most horrible experience that I can ever have.
I know I shouldn't blame the university administration but can't you be considerate a bit more?
2 papers in a row is tough to handle but it's still possible.
3 papers in a row is what I call madness.
Maybe it's selfish for me to say but I do not need my holiday to prolong by having my paper to end earlier than the rest, I would rather be given more time to prepare for my paper.
At least than I can score better than what I have now.

Still, I want to thank God for having such mercy on me.
My God is indeed a wonderful God.
At least my CGPA improved slightly rather than dropping.
Gotta work even harder next sem.
Lol.. wish me luck.
Tas.

my 2nd CD :D

2008-06-09T00:07:00.003+08:00

Got my 2nd Shinhwa CD.
The first one from my bro, it's their 9th Album, I haven't took a nice pic of it yet.
Hehe~ wait till I go back Mlk, I left my precious back there. :)
Wanted to listen to the 2nd CD that I bought, it's their concert in Japan in 2006, but it's so hard to get out from CD case, was so afraid to break it.
You know how fragile CDs are..

My love for Shinhwa is still growing & I'm learning hangul just for them. Haha~
If I'm crazy enough, I might take Korean Language for coming sem (which I might). :p
I'm so in love with them. *happy, floating around*
Btw.. I'm able to pronounce them already, but not sure whether the pronounciation are correct or not.
Was trying to get Korean dictionary but ended up getting Korean flashcard instead, it's funny that none of the bookstore in Sban actually sell Korean dictionary. This shows it's time to go shopping in KL. Yeah~

What I desperately need now is a Korean dictionary & super duper lots of Shinwha posters & CDs. Most music stores I visit only sell DBSK or Super Junior CDs & I'm not interested in any of them.
I'm desperate for Shinhwa stuffs now. Aiks~
So yeah.. if u happen to see any Shinhwa CDs or posters, help me to buy kay??
I'll promise to pay back.
If you want to give me for this year Christmas or next year birthday present, I don't mind too. :p

K lar.. enough of my gibberish.
Can't wait for new sem to start. Hope it will be a great academic year ahead. :D
Cherish ur remaining holidays. Haha~
Nites.

random

2008-06-05T23:34:00.002+08:00

I'm trying to learn Korean now.
It's hard & fun the same time.
Wish me luck.
Cherish ur remaining holiday. :)

my feelin :(

2008-05-24T01:26:00.003+08:00

Jealous.. I'm feeling JEALOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel like screaming rite now....
Aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Andy Oppa.. I know I'm supposed to be mature, supposed to be realistic, supposed to accept the fact that he is far away from me, I would never see him in real life n it's impossible for him to fall in love with me.
Furthermore I'm so short, dark, ugly and.. I can't make Kimchi, he wants a girl that can.
Still I feel so so so jealous watchin "We Got Married", makes me wish I'm Solbi so that I can be the one cookin for him, applying mask on him, sittin on his lap and kissin him.. and gives him all my love.
My heart feels like tearing apart when he gave Solbi a ring and said "Oppa's heart is slowly opening up itself" in the interview.
I dunno how true it is.. it might be acting, but it looks real, a nightmare for me..
But still I really hope Solbi can continue to make Andy happy.. cos he deserves to smile all the time. He's a cute sweetie. :)

Just ignore me.. I know I'm acting childishly again but I just can't help it.
Sigh.. dreams will only happen in dreams. *sad & jealous mode*

my 2nd post of shinhwa. :p

2008-05-20T16:45:00.004+08:00

Well.. I have been shouting "Shinhwa Shinhwa Shinhwa" since I started watching them joining the first season of love letter(game show, not movie) on Youtube.
Bet ppl around me are starting to get annoy with my childish, irritating, idiotic behavior. :p
What would you think if I tell you I cried a whole afternoon for them??
You must think I'm crazy rite??
A whole freaking afternoon.. after I read what happened to Andy, the youngest member in the group & what they did to have him coming back to the group it just makes me cry even more.. whether I'm watching the video clip or not.
Just thinkin alone enough to generate my tears outs.
Ishh.. y do I cry easily?? Haha..

I have no idea how to post youtube clips on my blog.
So I'll just put the link here.
Shinhwa 2001 Guerilla Concert 1/3 (Eng Subs)
Shinhwa 2001 Guerilla Concert 2/3 (Eng Subs)
Shinhwa 2001 Guerilla Concert 3/3 (Eng Subs)

My addiction for them grew even more now. Haha~
Well.. I better stop cryin rite now, eyes are super red d. :P
For those who hv finish their exams, congratulation.
For those who hv not, continue to gambate.
Finals ending soon. Yeah~

Lastly, a cute song clip from Andy, the member I like most in the group.
He doesn't have the best voice, you might not like his singing at all but when I hear this song, I feel like listening over n over again.
Cos he's so cute, cos this song is so him, you will understand my feeling when u get to know him.
Super duper love him lots. Haha
Tas ppl. :)

i'm tagged. wow~

2008-05-19T23:36:00.002+08:00

I just notice this.. in my bro's blog, I'm tagged.
Oh well.. now I know how u tag ppl. >.<

RULES:
1. The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her crush or perfect lover. Whichever applies.

2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.

3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.

4. If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again.

5. Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

Obviously he must be a guy, I'm not lesbian after all

here it goes...

1. He must be tall & fair since I'm dark & short

2. He must wear specs & have a nice voice

3. He must be smart, funny & mature, so that he can handle me well

4. He must love me for who I am & not ashame of me despite what I do

5. He must not be musician or gamer, who thinks instrument or computer is his gf/wife

6. He doesn't need to be rich but at least from a reasonably well-to-do background

7. Hopefully he is as cute as Andy Oppa~

8. Lastly, and most importantly he must be a Christian who loves & obey God.

Now i tag.. whoever is reading.. Will there be anybody?? *wondering*

Btw.. the person I mentioned do exist.. but I'm pretty sure he's not straight. Lol~

thanks a lot, bro :D

2008-05-19T19:43:00.003+08:00

You have no idea how happy I am right now.
You have no idea how dreamily floating I am right now.
I'm just so super duper happy rite now *jumping & dancing around in my room*
My awesomely great bro bought me the thing I want most.. I shall not reveal now!!!!!!!!!!! :P
I just want to tell him million times thank you, he does sayang me after all. Haha~
Wait until my exam over, I got lots of free time, I'll take nice nice picture about it, then I show you but really.. you have no idea how much squeaky noise and how much jumping I made till Elvi gave me a weird stare or how wide my smile is when I show to Renee.

Who needs a bf when u hv an awesomely nice bro and an amazingly cute, mature & talented boy band to make you happy??
Haha~ Maybe I'm destined to be single for the rest of my life. Yippie~!!